12/27/03 Saturday

Happy

I didn't went to the movies on a RAINY Xmas, I decided Today was nice enough to go. There wasn't a raindrop in sight! Lord Of The Rings starts at 12:45 PM at the Vista. I didn't want to go alone. I called Brian; he had other plans - go to the post office, The Village and take the movies back to library with Peter.

I didn't mentioned the movies at all. He invited me to tag along with them. Peter wasn't sick from the flu; food poisoning from something. I got dressed; short sleeves and baggy pants. I called them back on the bus 4, "on my way." I walked down to their place on Gower. I dailed the code; i had trouble a few times. Brian let me in. I didn't waste any time with the movies, "Can Peter go to the library and the post office some other time." He could, but he really want to. They decided on the movies with me at 12:45 PM.

Peter made breakfast - eggs & grits - for them. I jumped in the bed and played Tetris. Peter took a shower. Brian/I talked - we can go to the movies tomorrow. I don't want them to change their Today's plans. They don't mind at all. Brian gave me a LACC pamplet; I should take some classes. Peter came out of the shower; talked to Brian in private, "let's go to the movies tomorrow." Brian told him that I suggested the same thing. We decided their plans.

We took bus 4 to The Village; online place was close. Bus 4 took us to the post office. Peter/I both wondered where our box was. We both wanted each other to show out box first. Peter got me in the corner, pretended to kiss me. I cried, RAPE! I showed him my box, then he showed his. He got xmas cards. I got Nintendo Power! Next time, the library for a few hours.

Brian went online. Peter checked out The Sopranos and a Bob Hope movie. Peter then went online. I read the hollywood trade and LA Times. After a while, I was so bored! Damn, I wanted to leave so badly. Brian noticed I was BORED. He found some intern from the web; he need one for a class. I played Tetris to beat the BORDEDOM! I easily got bored at the library! There is nothing to do.

They invited me over for supper. I declined, "next month's rent." I said, they can cook it at my place and spend the night. Peter brought up breakfast; I have eggs. We caught the bus; they went to Trader's Joes. From the bank, I went to Lucy's for a money order, 7/11 for Milk/bread & called Brian. I told Brian, "just stay home, I come over tomorrow for the movies." Then HOME!!

Earth Journal

Angry

I made up my mind. I might as well put Earth Journal on another Journal site. I may get rid of AOL next year. You know what will happen, my Journal and the web site will be NO MORE! I hardly chat on the web that much. Being online takes up most of my time. No, I wasn't ADDICTION to the web. I was so BORED with the web. I go online every day. There was nothing to do at all.

I used Blogger, the one I forgot I used for ScareyKATT last year. I put every single entry in the NEW Earth Journal on Blogger. It took me all day. Yes, I got extremely mad. Twice, I have to restart it. When I add an link, somehow, it messed up every entry I put in. Damn, I was very mad. I even got mad at GOD! I didn't know what I went wrong. I was at the last month, December 2003. I added a link. Same thing happened! I cursed out loud to God! I tried once more. The third time wasn't a charm.

I noticed I coud put the actual day on the journal too. Even that gave me problems. When I put in the date, it always ended up being the Today's date! I was mad!

Somehow, I fixed the damned problem! Earth Journal was up and running! I got a bright ideal. Hey, I will put the old journal on Blogger too! Same problem occurred! DAMN IT! DAMN IT!

I was so tired of putting both journals on Blogger. It took me all afternoon and the evening time. I needed a break. Even my back was sore from sitting in the chair! Well, That does it for now. Just enjoy the Earth Journal while u can on AOL. U will read it on Blogger too starting today! Don't forget Old Journal too.

Laters.

Passions 12/22

Loopy

The Monday episode (12/22/03) of Passions was the best PASSIONS episode I ever saw this year.

Everyone got to find a way to get your hands on that episode!

I got my wish - The Addams Family came to Tabby's! They are their cousins! Even Boozy Boozeborne was HER cousin too!

Cousin Harry was Cousin IT! I should have known! Harry is HAIRY much like Cousin It is! U get my griff! hehe

U know that Nurse Kravitz was on LAUGH IN in the late 60's. She mentioned to the teens that she had some dreams about being on that show with Golden Hawn! That was classic!

Then later on in Tabby's kitchen with The Addams Family.....they did a Laugh In spoof! U should have seen it! ROFL

JER is very smart of doing HOMAGES! Lots of us grow up with Bewitched, The Addams Family, Phycho, Laugh In and others!

Passions is more fun with the homages!

World Idol

Happy

World Idol was on FOX at 8PM, Thursday night. Other countries's IDOLS will compete for the World Idol. Some were from Germany, Australia, Canada, Holland, South Africa, Belguim, UK, Norway and others.

So did you see World Idol? Don't forget to CLICK on the links!

There were a few CONTESTANTS I love. Will Young, whom I have been a big fan since he won the FIRST EVER Pop Idol in the UK!

Peter Evrard, Belguim, was awesome with the NIRVANA song. Really, I think he has a good chance of winning the World Idol. He did suprised everyone when he sung the Ricky Martin song. He can sing any songs.

Ryan Malcolm was pretty good, I like his singing voice.

I think Kurt Nilsen was the underdog; I also like his voice too.

Not counting your COUNTRY's IDOL, who do u want to win?

I got to pick Will Young

Rainy Xmas

Happy

A storm was on Xmas day. It was wet, rainy and cold in Los Angeles! That's too bad that the rain wasn't snow. Everyone will have a ball in the snow.

Mike showed up for Xmas; he wondered if I had some company. I pulled a fast one on him, "Yes, I do!" He thought the person was sleeping on my bed. Mike looked at me funny. I said, "I have company. You walked in the door. You are the company!"

Mike's "blond" hair is a lot better since last night. He coloured his hair at my place. He didn't thought the stuff didn't work on him. He went online to see the new movies - Cold Mountain and Big Fish sounds interesting. He invited me to see Big Fish with me at Los Feliz. I declined; I don't want to go out in the storm.

I pulled our his favourite movie, Urban Cowboy. He wanted to see that for the longest time. We stayed in and watched that movie instead. I made some jello with peaches and popcorn. We had some popcorn. After the movie, he went straight home. I went online for a little while. Mike called me; his power went out in the neighborhood. He will take a nap. I watched All In The Family on Channel 2. I had some jello.

5PM, I watched The Grinch Who Stole Xmas with Jim Carrey and Josh Evans for the first time. Nah, I didn't like the movie that much. The cartoon version was much better! I keep on thinking about the cartoon. I wanted to see it again; I haven't see the cartoon in a few years.

I watched World Idol......see the separate entry of World Idol!

Indy Blu Eyes

Loopy

Yesterday, I recieved three emails from Indyblueyes on CBS Soap Fans. kjlester13@comcast.net

The following message was sent to you by INDYBLUEYES while viewing your Member Profile:

1) Did you ever stop to think thats what Terry might have wanted?

There was no service and obituary because thats what HE wanted.....the family
was only respecting HIS wishes. Did you know that he had a heart problem?
NO...you did not........ its easier to smear smut and negativity.

2) But to put it on your website when you dont know for sure. And.....is it really any one's business? I think not!!!

3) How do you know that for sure? You shouldnt speak of anything that you do not know is to be the TRUTH !! I think this whole site of yous is SICK!!!
Reporting things you kno nothing about!!


I replied to her last email! Of course, I wished her a merry xmas! See, I am such a nice guy!

Look, MISS THING!

I don't need your NASTY ATTITUDE!

Afterall, I didn't start the AIDS rumor on the web!

What can Terry's family do to me?

Nothing at all!

Terry's family can't take me to court.

I DID NOTHING WRONG!

I will stand by what I said on my wonderful web site!

There is not a damn thing Terry's family or YOU do about!

Earth Journal

Gay Truth

Happy

The Gay Truth
by Kazz Falcon

Is being gay a sin?

We need go to back to Sodom and Gomorrah in Genesis 18:16 - 19:29 to UNCOVERED the real truth.

Most Christians confused it for homosexuality, but it wasn’t the case.

Did God really destroyed the cities for the gay sin?

The fact - the bible NEVER EVER said what sins they were in Genesis.

It started off with two angels arrived at Sodom; Lot met up with them and took them to his home.

The Sodom men wanted to have sex with the two men.

Lot refused them, “Do not do this wicked thing.”

Lot offered his two daughters to them, “you can do what you like to do with them.”

That verse told us the Sodom men can rape Lot's daughters at Lot's REQUEST!

The men (Angels) have come under the protection of Lot’s roof.

The Sodom men only wanted the men, not his daughters.

The two men pulled Lot into the house, then they struck the men who was at the door with blindness.

The two men told Lot to leave the city now with his family because God sent them (the angels) to destroy the city.

The angels urged Lot to leave with the coming of dawn.

Lot’s family reached Zoar, the sun had risen over the land.

God destroyed Sodom & Gomorrah.

Something occurred - why did the men wanted to have sex with the two men? Because they were angels.

They so much wanted the angels to fall from grace in God’s eyes. They knew something was up with the two men.

The verses really TOLD US that having sex with the angels is unnatural! Sex is between humans, the way it should be.

Lot offered his daughters to be RAPE by the men of Sodom! Yet, most Christians claimed it was homosexuality.

How can women's rape or sex with the angels be consider to be about homosexuality?

The "Christian" publishers mistook the Genesis verses for homosexuality.

So, they added “homosexual offenders” in 1 Corinthians 6.9 in the later versions of the Today’s bible.

Throughout the visit in Sodom, they were angels all along, not men.

God never transform them into human beings for their visit.

The verses was NEVER EVER about homosexuality at all.

OUTED Terry Lester

Happy

Today, I was at another forum on yahoo. Someone had heard that people suspected Terry was gay. So the Aids thing wouldn't be out of the question.

I set them STRAIGHT! I said, "You heard right! Terry is gay! I know that as a fact. It doesn't matter to me that Terry is gay. He cruised guys at some gay clubs in LA."

Oops, I let the pussy out of the bag! Shame on me! LOL

I want to get on their case for the AIDS thing comment. AIDS is not a gay disease; anyone can get it.

For some stupid reason, AIDS is assocatied to the homosexuals.

they really need to get the STRAIGHT FACTS! hehe

Few weeks ago, I wanted to tell everyone that Terry is gay........BUT I had a sick feeling inside of me that someone will bring up the Gay/AIDS connection.

So, I was against of OUTING Terry Lester to the world!

6.5 Earthquake

Loopy

By now, u know that we was hit by a 6.5 earthquake. It wasn't that big; I was not a SCAREYKATT! I was online and watching the news. The earthquake came at 11:18 AM. I felt the rolls of the earthquake. The walls, the floor and others moved!

All the years I lived in Hollywierd, I was never been in a big earthquake till TODAY!

By now, i am so used to the earthquakes! There are more earthquakes on the way.

So, I didn't watch Y&R today; the earthquake news took over their time slot. Instead, I watch All My Children. I switched back to CBS. B&B was on with Brooke & Ridge. BARF ME OUT! I went back to All My Children! I care less about Ridge/Brooke.

12/21/03 Sunday

Chillin'

Brian called me in the morning. They can't spend the night with me; Peter came down with the flu. Peter was painting their apartment.

Brian just told me that his mother had breast cancer; both of them. He thought I knew already. She will see the doctors this week.

That does about it for Sunday. Nothing much happened!

12/20/03 Saturday

Happy

I was playing Tetris on my bed, relaxing. Mike showed up unannounced. I didn't want to let him in. I heard the knob turning. Suprised, he had the key with him for the first time. I had no choice except to let him in. I lied - I was sleeping. He wondered if he should bring the turkey, not really. I don't like turkey that much. I haven't tell him about my other xmas plans; I may spend it with Robert for dinner or go to the movies.

I better clean the filthy restroom. He want to buy his diet coke at 7/11. I gave Mike a dollar for coke. He vanished for a few mintues. I cleaned the restroom. He brought back the cokes and went straight to the computer. He wanted to watched Evita with Madonna. I mentioned to put it in. I finished up the spotless restroom. Evita wasn't playing. I put the tape in; we watched the movie. He sent a email to his old teacher.

Mike said he was hungry; I wanted to make fish. He claimed it was fattening! He wanted tuna instead; I got angry. He always have Tuna at my place. We had Tuna Helper on Tuesday. He begged; he promised he will pay me back. Mike claimed he was broke. He said he spend about $40 almost every day. Damn, he wasn't broke. I was broke no less! I only had $2 on me.

He persauded me for Tuna! I will make it after I took a shower; Nasty, I skunk up the place! hehe. He used the restroom without closing the door; the heat escapes. I got mad. Hey, I need that heat! I waited another hour to take a shower. Mike was hungry. He wanted to eat NOW! Hello, I wanted the shower first! Mike begged. He took two tuna cans; I said, "me too!" He wanted to use FOUR tuna! Hell, no! We don't need four! I grabbed some eggs. He put some water in the pan. I mentioned we don't heed water; three boiled eggs. He still think the tuna wasn't enough for the both of us. Hey, green beans or corn! He picked the green beans.

I jumped in the shower; the radio blasted! I got out. HE already eaten; he thought he had more than me. Nope, the food was right! I added more green beans to the tuna. Mike laughed about David/Liza - David didn't know how strong Liza can be when drunk! ROFL. He laid in the bed; watched Entertainment Tonight for a while. He said, he may go dancing tonight. He can't go the ZONE; he was broke. Tomorrow, The Zone sounds fagulous. $2 at 2, $3 at 3, $4 at 4 and so forth on Sundays. I bet Sundays is lots of fun.

Depression

Sad

"Nothing wrong with taking some time off from the forum to get your creative juices going. I hope you'll find that motivation you're searching for.....& sooner rather than later. Good luck!"

It is just not the forums, it is just life itself. i am tired of wasting my time doing nothing. There is more out there for me. I need to look for it, but where?

it is really driving me up on the boredom wall. if i don't find anything soon with my life, i may i will end up doing something stupid.


"Don't you DARE do something stupid!"

Trust me I have been doing something stupid lately;I haven't get caught yet. I may not go to great lengths as Amy Fisher and other seedy people, but somehow, I will get notice at any cost!

Desperate times call for desperate measures


"The answers you're looking for are out there somewhere, so just keep searching for them."

I gave up the search long time ago.


"Don't give up on yourself or doubt your self worth."

it doesn't matter anymore. I had nothing to be motivated.


"You have something to offer the world, everyone does if they look hard enough."

yet, the world ignores me! Top it all, no one takes me serious at all.


"Try to decide what your greatest strengths are & then look for a way to market those so that you can get some satisfaction from what you're doing."

No one is willing to give me a chance or a break.


"WE HAVE FAITH IN YOU, ALIEN.....never forget that!"

as long as someone have been on SSI, u will get bored quickly.

It is not the life I want any more!

I might be depressed, but I hides it pretty well from everyone! I don't think seeing a shrink will do me anything good. Some people is like that with shrinks. It didn't work before


"One thing I do know, & that's that deliberately checking out is NEVER the best answer!"

I never mention Suicide at all. How can I commit suicide when I am ALREADY DEAD?

I really don't have a life at all. A life is doing something with your life. I don't have that life, just a boring nothing to do life.

$85.97 Cable Bill

Angry

$85.97 Cable Bill
By Kazz Falcon

I got rid of cable about a month ago.
I have cable tv for three months!
They never give me a cable box.
I only got FOUR cable channels.
Yesterday, I got the cable bill, $85.97.
All this time, I have not PAY MY BILL yet!
The cable cost $21.99 monthly.
I signed up for the special rate.
Why should I pay?
I never ever got a cable box.
THEY RIPPED ME OFF!
Get this.....the late free is $10.
Sorry, Charlie, I won't pay it at all.
DO you know what?
If the cable company DEMANDED MONEY from me,
I will take them to COURT!

Michael Jackson

Happy

Michael Jackson was finally charged with Child Molestion. He committed seven "lewd acts" against a boy under the age of 14 earlier this year. He could go to prison for more than 20 years if found guilty at a trial.

Tom Sneddon agreed to delay Jackson's arraignment a week to Jan. 16 and return Jackson's passport to allow him to travel to Britain from Dec. 20 to Jan. 6. Hello, is The D.A. stupid? He gave Michael a chance not to return to the country! That was a dumb move on the D.A.'s part!

Ten months ago, the boy appeared on national television in a British documentary holding hands with Jackson, who said the two had slept in the same bedroom but not the same bed. Jackson defended his penchant for holding sleepovers with children, describing the practice as sweet and innocent.

There is another thing I don't get. Millions of people saw the British documentary on ABC. Since the arrest of Michael Jackson last month, the boy's face is now COVERED UP from the same documentary! Hmm, why? That doesn't make any sense whatsoever. I know the press can't reveal his name. Yet, everyone know his face and, assuming, his name too.


Side Note - Victor Newman was arrested for illegal business; two great powerful men was charged on the same day!

12/18/03 Thursday

Frustrated

Once again, the damn ants came back strong! I tried to track them down. I thought they came behind the computer again. So, I pulled the desk from the wall; put salt by the wall. I noticed that ant came from under the desk, not THE WALL! Drats! The ants always find another way to get the food for their queen! I got the flashlight. I follow the trail to the bed; they were coming under the bed! Damn, those ants!

Well, my place was a big mess. I cleaned my place. I lost the anttrail; I will set a trap tonight to finish off the trail for good! I chatted with Ray online for a while. We haven't talk in a few weeks. I told him I may get a pussy; he claimed I better get a dog instead. Yeah, he might be right. I need to go out more. I hardly go out anymore. Hmm, I wondered why!

I put off cleaning a few times. I was done by the evening time. I need to clear the stuff under the bed. Then I will know for sure of where the ant trail leads to. I used the flashlight by my bed. I couldn't see any ants by the wall. Well, By tomorrow, I will know! Hopefully, I won't have any more ant problems! Then again, I had that pesky problem over a year. Wait till the next resident move in! He will have the same ant problem like me! I won't even tell any of them.

I set the ant trap on the computer desk. For some odd reason, Tang attracts them! That's how I tracked down the trail the last time by accident; lots of ants wants a taste of Tang! I firgured I defeated the ants. My God! They kept on coming back to pester me! How many rounds I have to go with the ants? I believed this is about round 15; it must be more than that! I won't be defeated by them!

My place was spotless now! Clean and spotless! Tomorrow may be another story! The battle with the damn ants continues......

12/17/03 Wednesday

Happy

Nothing big happens like always! My life does sux big time. Why can't my life be like The Simple Life?

I picked up my mail, just junk mail! I hardly pick up my mail that much. I mostly get my mail at home now. I may send my magazines back to the post office earlier next year. I called Robert at the bus stop. Sean and him have the flu. Taylor was mean to him the other week; Robert forgot to wish him a Happy Birthday last month. Damn, Taylor, you need to lay off him! Robert mentioned that he can't remember all his friend's birthday. That's true. Robert didn't call me on my birthday like Taylor. I wasn't even hard on Robert!

Robert wanted to see his mother for xmas; right now, he is very sick. So, he might cook xmas dinner for us. If he don't, I may go to the movies, Lord Of The Rings or party with Mike at my place. I told Robert that I may get a pussy next year. I can't go on living like this. I was so lonely, I need some company! He will help me to find one; he will get the pussy his shots too. He said I could try the newpapers.

I got home and watched my soaps. This week, I watching All My Children once again. It was good to see Erica Kane and everyone else! Whenever I am home, I will tape AMC and watch Y&R/B&B. I should have done that long time ago.

Evening, Brian called me during The OC. He needs to send an email - URGENT! Brian/Peter came over. I opened the front gate and thank them for the xmas card I got today. Brian checked the email; Brian and I watched TV. I boiled some eggs for a Tuna sandwich. Brian realized he can't copy the email. The copier wasn't working. I was too busy cooking to help him out.

It was getting late for them by 11 PM. I just finished the Tunafish; I didn't want them to leave yet; I made the tunafish just for them. I didn't want lots of leftovers. Of course, I was hungry too. They ate two sandwich and drank koolaid. I ate one and save the rest for tomorrow's lunch. Then they was off their way. They may come stay with me for the weekend!

Terry Lester's AIDS death

Sad

Original Jack Abbott - dead!
The Genoa City News has confirmed that Terry Lester (the original Jack Abbott) is dead at the age of 53. While rumored to have died late last month from AIDS, no official cause of death was given.

Abbott is seen in this 1984 photo with Lindsey Wells (right) and Carole Robbins. Wells took sexual photos of Jack with his step mother, Jill Abbott, and tried to blackmail him. Robbins was a loyal Jabot employee.

An news article from Y&R News.


Well, I am not suprised about Terry dying from AIDS! I mentioned few days ago that he died from HIV related death.

I truly believed I was the first one who brought up HIV! I just hope that no one will make a BIG DEAL about his AIDS death. He belonged where he should be now - In Heaven, looking down to his family and fans!

I know he did NOT get HIV from needles. He couldn't be a druggie. It must have to do with sex.

Heather Tom

Happy

Today, Heather Tom debuted in her Kelly Cramer role on ABC's One Life To Live. She was impression; she can back up her talent big time!

I was expecting more of Heather Tom on Today's show. From what I seen with Kelly and the previous Kelly, Heather Tom pulled it off! I felt like Heather was more Kelly than Tracy Melchior ever was this past six months.

I think I started to watch OLTL once again! I wished I didn't stop watching few months ago. I am familiar with most characters, than the storylines!

Tracy was the reason I stop watching OLTL. Her Kelly didn't do anything for me. I couldn't see Tracy as Kelly!

Tracy was better off on Bold & Beautiful. Then again, B&B wasted her talents on that soap. I really like Tracy on Sunset Beach!

Heather Tom is my Kelly as much as she was my VICKY NEWMAN! She was on Y&R from 1991 -2003; she did one hell of a job! Lots of fans were pretty upset that Y&R let her go.

Heather tried her luck in NYC for soaps and theater. She also tried out for The View co host job on October 30/31. The View job went to Elisabeth Hasselbeck, who finished fourth on Survivor: The Australian Outback, on my 34th Birthday.

Days Of Our Lives

Happy

LIKE SANDS THROUGH THE HOURGLASS...: In an unprecedented deal, ABC-owned SoapNet has acquired rerun rights to NBC's Days of Our Lives. Beginning March 15, same-day Days repeats will air weeknights at 7 pm/ET, leading into SoapNet's block of ABC dramas. Maybe this will finally pave the way for the network to acquire Santa Barbara, the best daytime drama in suds history! - from TV GUIDE!!!!


Days on SoapNET will start on March 15, 2004, MacDonald Carey's birthday! Mac was an original cast member; he played Tom Horton on Days since day one. He died from lung cancer on March 21, 1994 in Beverly Hills.

Days Of Our Lives is on NBC at 1 PM every weekdays. Check your local listings.

Matthew Ashford

Happy

Today, Matthew Ashford, debuted in his recurring Dr. Stephan Haven role on ABC's One Life To Live. He was on OLTL once before as Drew Ralston (1982/83).

He was well known for Days Of Our Lives as Jack Deveruax, from 1987 - 1993 and 2001 - 2003. James E Reiley fired him both times from Days, just like Thaao Penghlis (Tony DiMera).

This year, Matthew's soap journey is a strange "killer" one! He went from one serial killer on Days to another one on OLTL! Jack was killed by the Salem Serial Killer on October 27, 2003. Dr. Stephan Haven will help profile -- and possibly track down -- the so-called Music Box Killer on OLTL.

I didn't know Matthew started OLTL today. I thought he was already on for a while.

Whitney Houston

Mischievous

Bobby Brown and Whitney Houston

Over the weekend, Bobby hit the left side of Whitney's face with an open right hand during a fight. He didn't stay around; he fled to LA on a airplane!

He looked guilty by the minute. Whitney has cut upper lip and bruised cheek. Bobby just turned himself into the police for domestic abuse.


If Whitney doesn't leave Bobby this time, she is the most stupid person on earth. She doesn't need Bobby in her life or the kids' lifes either!

We know that Bobby is abusive & voilent. For God's sake, just leave and don't ever take him back, Whitney.

Your kids really depends on the mommy. You could do it as long as you walk away from Bobby. Don't let him sweet talk of taking him back. It wasn't good for you or the kids.

Your kids' safety comes first, just like yours! Whitney, if you don't leave, it could get lots worse the next time around for everyone involved.

I believed this WASN'T the first time that Bobby hit Whitney!

12/10/03 Wednesday

Mischievous

I took a shower after some Joe. I watched Rudoph. Last night, I like the new Peanuts xmas special. I laughed throughout the special. Rerun threw his shoe at the dog on the bike ride! He is one smart funny kid. "I keep on losing shoes." Rerun trying to get Lucy to tell him his one line, but she threatened to beat him up!

I noticed the sun was out. I pondered about Smart & Final. I didn't want to go out in the rain, but I took a chance to S&F. I brought Tang, kool aid and a flashlight. I really need another flashlight; my small one wasn't working that good. I was about to get the flashlight at S&F yesterday.

I watched the last 20 minutes of AMC. Babe talked to Stuart on the floor; Adam wasn't too pleased seeing her there, then JR walked in. Brooke/Jamie had a falling out about Babe/the baby. Tomorrow should be EXPLOSIVE - a bomb went off on Bianca/Kendell. Kendell walked on Ryan/Greenlee; she wants Ryan back.

I watched OLTL to get me up to speed. Walker wanted to see Blair at Dorian's, but Dorian lied that she wasn't there. The other day, Blair just found out that Walker is Todd. Blair finally talk to Walker at his place; Walker overheard Blair talking on the phone to Kevin about supper. Blair lied to Walker, "I have a supper date with Dorian." Walker went upstairs; Blair locked the door, "let the games begins."

I fell asleep during Ellen; Tom Cruise was a guest. I watched the soaps on tape. I had steak/green beans. I watched Billboard Music awards, then the last hour of Trisha/Ryan's wedding; their wedding was beauitful. At the reception, Ryan turned a poem into a song, sung by a country singer! I fell in love with the song! I want that song!

11:45 PM, Victor stopped by for some quarters. We talked about the cable. He oles the cable over $90. I told him not to pay for it; we never recieved a cable box. He only got two channels; I had about 5. I noticed he had a goat tee, very nice.

Terry Lester

Sad

Tonight, I just learned that Terry Lester died at age 53. Terry was a famous soap actor on Young & Restless (Jack Abbot), Santa Barbara (Mason Capwell) and As The World Turns ( Royce Keller).

Wow, the news is WILDFIRE on the web!

So far, I haven't came across any NEWS ARTICLES about his death. I haven't check SOD web site yet. I may go there tomorrow. By then, some soaps sites will have the article!

Damn! I can't believe it that he died! Terry Lester was my FIRST JACK ABBOTT for me. I still remembered him on Y&R.

Maybe, he died HIV related death. Just don't qoute me! It is just a thought. I strongely suspected that. I believed he didn't got it from needles.


Few years ago, my gay friend, Paul, met him at a club in LA. Terry had a goatee and looked different. Paul knew he was Jack Abbott on Y&R.

Terry was cruising some men at the club last year.


This entry has 1 comments (Add your own)

Are you doing his ghost any good by telling the world this guy went to a sex club. Shameful if this is the best you can come up with.

My pic

Silly

This nice friendly ALIEN will take u to my pic.

This will be the only time I will let you to see me in my human flesh!

I can't hardly wait to be a real alien for the world to see.

For the time being; I must remained human to find my way home to the mothership.

12/9/03 Tuesday

Happy

I woke up at 8AM. I stayed in bed for 30 more minutes. I just want to relax. I got up at 8:30. I got dressed. I went online for a short time. Once again, I headed out to Smart & Final for more Kool Aid, Lemonade and butter. This was about my 7th time in a week! I caught 156 to Vermount and jumped on 4 in front of me. Bus 4, I need to walked up the steps. I normally wait for the non step bus; it is easier to take the groceries on the bus.

I forgot the pull the cord at my stop. I got off at the next bus stop. I went to 7/11 for milk, then I went home. Jerry Springer was on; once again, I find it interesting to watch. I noticed that they let the audience STIPPED for New Orleans necklaces. You know? In New Orleans, you will get a necklace for showing your private part in front of the public. I never did that before, except the bath house few years ago! Yes, I was a big tramp back then! lol

During one segment, the audience danced on the stage to Hillbilly music; things went back to normal! Forget that! What is normal on Jerry Springer show? It is just sleaze all year long. The topic was love triangles - one lady want to take her cousin's hubby from her. The lady's boyfriend didn't like that; she don't want another kid - she wants a MAN! Ohhh, la la! I may watch it again tomorrow if there's nothing good on!

I watched my soaps till I went to Smart & Final for the upteeth time! I just got chips and eggs. Then I went home, relax, watched Passions on tape, my regular shows and such. The ants got worse on the computer desk; the trail went to my empty cup, which I had TANG! I got my small flashlight; I wished I got a big one at Smart 7 Final - there was a nice size. The small one wasn't working right. I fixed it thou, I twisted the top till the light came on.

I found the beginning of the trail; under the carpet by the wall next to the computer. Yes, I got on all fours......hee haw....hee haw.....and put salt to end the trail! A while passed, the ants seemed to be gone! It was about time too. The ants have been on the desk over a month. I tried to find the trail, but couldn't. This time, I was successful!

12/7/03 Sunday

Happy

This morning - I left a message on the Brian's machine, "I can't make it tonight for Peter's concert." He picked up the phone. I explained my friend will take me out to supper tonight. Brian came over to use the computer again; he need to send more homework to his teacher in the email. If he knew he will have the same teacher for two classes, he wouldn't take another class with her. She gives too much homework to her students.

Brian searched for a white shirt on the web for Peter; he needed one for the concert. Brian sent a text message to Peter. I played Yoshie and watched I Love Lucy. Peter returned one to Brian, "I got one at Macy's." Peter asked Brian, "What kind of flake I am?" I told Brian to say "Lucky flake!" in the text message. Peter sent one back, "Kazz is funny that he should work on 4rd street." Then, I am a lucky funny flake! ROFL

I wanted to cancel the supper with my friend; I should go to show him some support. I was about to put on nice clothes, but I haven't spend any time with the other friend. Brian wondered if it was Miguel. Hell, no! Miguel was done with me after I failed him last month; I didn't bring him any money to Hollywood/Highland. Who was the mystery date? Hmm, I will say one thing - my lips are sealed! I won't gossip about my personal life! hehe

12/6/03 Saturday

Mischievous

Today turned out to be a pretty good day for me. I woke up early; I was so tired of that. I just want to sleep late. I went online for a while. I checked the TV Guide; there was nothing interest on Saturday Morning TV. It wasn't the same anymore. In my youth, I looked forward to watch Saturday Morning TV every week. Now, it just suxs.

I checked my phone message. Brian called me one hour ago; he need to use my computer. Homework was dued today. Everything in Santa Monica was closed. I was the next best thing for him. I am such a nice guy! I called him back; "come now, I will be waiting all day."

I watched Great Heroes Of The Bible on TBN. It was about Joseph and his brothers. They were so jealous of his relationship with their father that he was sold into slavery. I missed last week's. Adam & Eve episode was about two weeks ago. It was a good thing I caught the beginning of Adam & Eve. Great Heroes was the only worthwhile show to watch on Saturday mornings. In my youth, I was never big on Christian shows except for David & his dog on Sunday mornings. I forgot the name of his dog. It have been years I saw that show.

Brian came alone; Peter was in class. We felt relieved we had some time alone with each other. Every other time, they are always together at my place. I showed him Kelly's pic; he doesn't even recognised him either. We both wondered who Kely could be. We have no ideal. Even, Peter wouldn't know; he didn't last long at The Foundation House. Brian really like my email to Kelly; it was straight to the point.

Brian did his homework; I finished watching Great Heroes, then I turned off the TV. He need some peace and quite. I gave him some Tang. I played Yoshi. He finished by 2:30 PM. He relaxed and talked. We checked airline tickets to London; most prices was outragous! I can't even afford it.

4PM, It was time for Brian to meet Peter in Santa Monica; they want to see thexmas lights on 3rd street. I tagged along till Western. We caught 304. I got Kool Aid/lemonade at Smart & Final. Then, I brought bread at 7/11. I got home after 5 PM.

Child Molester

Worried

Child Molester
By Kazz Falcon
Dedicated to Michael Jackson

The needed less fortunate children was an easy prey
They came from a broken homes and/or sick
I brought them happiness at Netherland
They trusted me
I gained their trust
They wanted to sleep over
The parents wouldn't mind at all
I let them to sleep with me
I don't find it that strange
Afterall, I was still a kid
I had lots of toys and fun things to do
What kid wouldn't want to spend time with me?
I was a real ife Peter Pan
No one will suspect a thing from me
We became so close in the friendship
Now, I was treated like a smooth criminal
Some kids accused me of molesting them
Really, their parents just wanted money from me
Why can't the press and the police see the extortion?
Everyone was in a uproar about me
I just can't be judge for being a child molester


Copyright © 2003 Kazz Falcon

Kelly

Happy

The following message was sent to you by Kelly while viewing your Profile on DelphiForums.com:


Hey Bro,

I think I know you, we met at Foundation House if you are the boy now known as
Kazz Falcon?

KELLY


This morning, I sent the old friend an email.

Good morning, Kelly

It is a very small world afterall.

How have u been?

I saw your pic on your Delphia profile; I don't recognized u.

It have been a long time.

What year was u at the Foundation House?

Have a nice weekend.

Robert Hilger

Angry

Well, Rober Hilger, it have been a long time coming.

I decided to write the nasty lowdown about you.

You really hurt me by lying about $200 you borrowed from me six months ago.

You promised you will pay me back.

I haven't see a cent of my money since then.

We ran into each other about two months ago; u claimed u will pay me back that month!

For some strange reason, u don't want to pay me back at all either time.

Hello, u are not being a good friend.

You haven't even call me about that money either!

Some friend u turned out to be.

Why are u mistreating me?

I never did anything wrong with u.

I guess u just want to use my kindness.

That is such a shame; friends doesn't use each other!

I truly felt used by you; I was never like that to you.

All the times u need money, I was the one to SAVE your hide.

Now, u don't care a damn about me; u only care about my money.

I already know u don't want to pay me back

If u truly care about me, u would have done so long time ago.

To this day, u are avoiding me by not paying the $200 back

I just lost faith in u

Remember, u hurted me first.

12/5/03 Friday

Mischievous

Nothing exciting happened today in the boring life of Kazz Falcon. Why can't my life be like Young & Restless, my favourite soap?

Speaking of Y&R, it was pretty good. Coleen can't go to the xmas dance with JT; Tracy wanted to spend some time with her before the book tour. Jack told Nikki the truth of Victor's illegal business dealings; she couldn't accept that Victor will do such a thing. Nikki learned Jack/Phyllis's separation; it started to dawn on her. Victor came home; Nikki slapped him, "How dare u?" Michael tried to reason with Sharon, "blackmail Cameron too." Suddenly, Nick's secretary told Sharon that he wanted to see her right now.

I watched B&B; BORING!!! Brooke's doctor did the test on the baby. Ridge, Nick & Brooke will know the father of the baby in a few days. Brooke wanted the fued between Ridge/Nick to stop. Ridge still believed that Nick took advantage of Brooke when everyone assumed he was dead. Jackie & Stephanie talked about their sons; Jackie hoped the baby is Nick's, not Ridge's, then Nick will stay in town afterall to be with the woman he loves and their baby.

NBC 4 messed up; I wasn't able to watch Days or Passions. So, I went shopping at Smart & Final three days in a row. I brought more Tang and one lemonade. I put them in the bag. I caught 156 bus to Vermont/Santa Monica. I was tempted for 304, but I stayed put. I caught 4 all the way home. A asian guy asked for directions of a Sunset address. Sorry, I didn't help him. I have no ideal of the address. I could have take him home with me. Yes, I do have the web. Hopefully, something will come out of it! LOL

I watched TV, online, my unusally whore things I do! I finally recieved my Soap Opera Digest magazine. I thought Soap Opera Weekly will come together. SOW may come tomorrow or next week. The OC teens was on the front cover of Entertainment Weekly. Lots of people are into that show.

That was about the day I had. Isn't my life pretty exciting?

12/4/03, Thursday

Happy

I got up early about 6 AM. I went online for a while and ate breakfast. I left my place at 7:20; walked to the post office with the bag. Damn, I was early. They opened at 8:30. I waited over 40 minutes, playing the gameboy. The gameboy always pass up time for me. They opened the door. An old lady wanted to cut in line; I became the second person.

The guy sent me to the door for the package. I was fourth in line. They finally saw me; not Apt 4, I lived in 6th. I went to the table, put the two boxes in the bag. They wouldn't fix; I opened the boxes and put the movies in the bag. I walked outside, it was getting hot. I put my leather coat in the bag too. I walked home.

I had time to watch a movie till Y&R comes on. I put Prince Of Egypt in the VCR. I saw that movie with Grek Cole at Century City on a cold day in 1998. We both liked the movie. The splitting of the sea was an awesome force! It gave me chill, it still does to this day.

I watched Y&R; Vicki let Nick have it big time for turning on his father. Nick admitted the truth to her. Sharon talked to Victor, he mentioned that he put Nick in Charge. Phyllis told Jack about Victor's illegal dealings; She decided it was time to move on with their lifes. Her job is important to her; she was pleased with her work. Sharon ran into Cameron at Nick's office; she told Michael Baldwin about the abusive relationship. Jack called Nikki to stay put; it was time to tell her about Victor.

I watched Days for a while till I went to the Smart & Final for popcorn and Tang. I went home; caught the last half of Passions. Then, I finished watching Days. I watched The Road To El Dorado; another fabulous movie. The rest of the day, I watched TV, ate mac & chesse and about to go to bed. My day was fulfilling. Good night, guys.

12/3/03 Wednesday

Happy

Today, I wanted to go out and do something. I did nothing yesterday. I figured the movies will be here by yesterday. Boy, I was wrong. I got a email from Columbia House, stating the movies are on the way.

I watched my soaps except Passions. I waited for the 304 bus over 30 minutes! Bus 2 and 4 come lots of times. I thought I wouldn't make it time at the post office. Thanx to 304, I got my mail! I haven't been out this late in the afternoon; I usually get the mail in the morning. I missed out alot. I must adventure out in the afternoon more. Also, I haven't been out in the evening in a long time.

I caught the 304 bus to Smart & Final on Western; that place was packed! I grabbed the cart. I need to get oatmale, but I forgot the other thing! It came to me - peanut butter! I wanted to get more stuff; I didn't want to take it on the bus. So, I settle on two things. Tomorrow, I may pick up more stuff like popcorn and candy.

I took 304 straight home. I did my thing - soaps and online. The mailman left a note - YES, my movies are here! I can't wait to get from the post office. I was so excited; I ordered the movies about two weeks ago before Thanxgiving. I just finshed my deal with Columbia House! I ordered three movies at the FULL PRICE! I don't have to get any more movies from them! I may sign up for the CDs with them or BMG Music Service.

I ate two peanut butter sandwich for supper. I was that hungry. A neighbor used my microwave; he wanted to exchange movies then we will give their movie back to each other. I didn't want to. I hid my movies from him. He came back with Scoripon King. I lied, "I watched it." For the rest of the day, I watched my shows.I ate another PB sandwich!

By 10 PM, I was getting tired. It's time for bed. I need to get up early to pick up the movies from the post office. You may heard from me later on this evening. If not, good night, sweet dreams.

Pagan 22

Happy

A serious post from Pagan22 in Gay Life.

1122.8 "Y'know, someone could print out this entire discussion and save it for a rainy day. What you did, giving your partner HIV is horrible. My best friend Jason had unprotected sex just one time and he got HIV. It's already starting to turn into full blown AIDS and this MI winter might kill him. Yeah, it's that bad. And to think you knowingly did what you did makes me sick. I don't believe in heaven or hell or any of that Christian stuff, but I do believe in karma. You'll get yours someday."


This is my honest response to her......

Y'know, someone could print out this entire discussion and save it for a rainy day.

I really doubt that someone will just do that. They don't have any gain from it. There will be no point of saving it for a rainy day. I will have SUNNY days no matter what.

The passion I have is too strong NOT TO STOP! Yes, I will continue the art. I know I won't get in trouble whatsoever.


IN CLOSING, the attempted murder is something very ARTISTIC i did!

Reality NBC

Chillin'

Fear Factor was exciting last night; the stunts was awesome. The first stunt - They need to put the flags on the other boat. Two boats was speeding side by side. The first guy missed the boat and fell in the water. Later, he complained to Joe Rogan about the stunt! He was a sore loser!

The second stunt was very gross; I was glad that I wasn't eating! Most times, I will eat during Fear Factor. I am trying to stomach the stunts while I eat. Someday, I will get on Fear Factor to conquer my fears! Yeah, right! I am not that crazy! LOL. Back to the second stunt, they arrived at a wine place. They need to make "WINE" with earth worms and drink the wine grass! I won't dare to do that stunt! I will throw up right then and there. I even don't like worms!

The last stunt was much like the first stunt - side by side trucks! They need to stand beside the moving trucks to put the 11 flags on the other truck. That stunt I could do unlike the boats. I can't swim! The guy won the money and Fear wasn't a factor for him!

Average Joe put on some heavy weight! ROFL! Melena became her fat cousin to see how they will treat her "cousin." Zack was most mean spirited about her; Duff: Destinated Ugly Fat Friend. The cousin came out at the end and revealed the truth; she was indeed Melena. She mentioned some hurt her cousin.

She got rid of Zack. Good for her! Zack was a big jerk throughout the show. In the first episode, Mr Lowlife himself cracked an egg on someone's head. Since then, the men doesn't like Zack that much! Who could blame them?

Then, she say bye to one of the hunks, Michael! He was the one who first introduced himself to Melana that he wasn't a contestant and she will meet the REAL Average Joes in the first episode.

The showdown was Average Joe (Adam) versus Hunk (Jason) in a two hour final next monday night on NBC at 9 PM. I had feelings that the HUNK will get the girl! They always do!

12/1/03 Monday

Mischievous

I haven't check my mail in a while. It was about that time for the post office in West Hollywood. I took the express bus up there. Ninteno Power came and I threw away the junk mail. I still need to change of address for my friend. I don't wait his mail come to my PO box. He never seems to pick up his mail from me. The last time was few months ago. Since then, I haven't heard from him. I might as well throw his mail in the trash.

I caught the bus; pondering to go home or Sam Goody at City Walk. I got a coupon from Entertainment Weekly for $4 off a CD or DVD. I was on my way there last Saturday. I realized on the subway that I forgot the coupon. I thought I put it in my packback; it was in the other one! So, I went straight home.

I arrived at the City Walk; Damn, Sam Goody was NOT there anymore. I was looking forward to get Ultimate Dance Party, my favourtie CD. I missed that CD since I left it behind when I moved back to Hollywierd few years ago. All my CDs was in Texas which I regretted it alot. I can't believed Sam Goody wasn't at City Walk.

I wasn't ready to go home; it was still morning time. I caught the first showing of Gothika starring Robert Downey Jr and Halle Berry. I was in the wrong theater, #1. Gothika was at #5. Halle Berry was quite fagulous. I jumped out of my seats a few times. You need to see Gothika, a good thriller.

After the movie, I walked around City Walk. Wouldn't you know it? I came upon.....drum rolls place.......SAM GOODY! I was so happy I found Sam by the entrance! I walked pass Sam without knowing it. I thought Sam was no longer at City Walk. I checked out the dance CDs; nothing I like. I took the subway to Santa Monica/Vermount.

I got on the bus, noticed a long time friend. I didn't talk to him; he was with his friends Closed to my stop, he recognised me, "STEVIE!" We got off at the same stop. He wasn't a complete women yet. We have not saw each other since he got BOOBS! We caught up with each other. We parted ways at 7/11 after I gave him my number. I went home and watch my soaps!

Famous FRAUD

Silly

anyone who wants to be famous on the boards likely has an issue of being not noticed in real life.

OMG! Hey, that is so me!

Dear lord!

They figured me out!

Now, I have to try TWICE AS HARD to get noticed!

Where's to begin!

Hmm, I can go back to the attempted murder, the world's biggest drug loser, the voilent alcohlic, the lowest of the scum........

It is too hard to choose from!

I really can't make up my mind!

family part 2

Mischievous

It's too bad that you never felt you fit in with your family.

Other people felt the same way. I felt like I am a OUTSIDER - at home and school.


you'll change your mind about not wanting to ever see them again.

I really doubt it very much.

1999, Someone sent her a letter stating I died from AIDS. My mother found me at a shelter. I moved back home - the BIGGEST MISTAKE of my life.

Mom and sister WANTED me to take over my sister's old place with my mother. I didn't want to; I told them i was unhappy in texas this past TWO MONTHS.

They didn't listen to me at all; I signed the one year lease with mom - The SECOND mistake of my life. I felt like i was FORCE into signing it. One night, i ran away from home - without telling no one - back to Hollywierd. I didn't want them to CONTROL MY LIFE.

And u really thought that THOM BIERDZ have it bad! ROFL.


People change over time, & so do their opinions about things,

Not about my life! I am so estranged from them that I care less about them.

All I say that LIFE IS ONE BIG SOAP! We need to learn how to live with it and move on with our lives. I really need my art; it made me the person I am today. The art is my lifeline!

Charlee's email

Anxious

The following message was sent to you by CHARLEE while viewing your Member Profile:

If all that is true then it was really bad of you to do that! Why would you do it? Did someone do that to you and you did this in some sort of warped retalitation? Or is this scenario just something you know could happen to someone? I sure hope it's not true not just for him but for you also. HIV is a terrible disease. Down deep you know is a horrible thing to do to someone. Did you care about this person at all or were you just using him? If he thinks he gave it to you then why doesn't he want anything to do with you? Is it that he feels guilty? I know this is a lot of questions that are none of my business. I'm just trying to understand I suppose. As to telling him the truth...what would it accomplish? If you both have the disease then it would only make him hate you for sure! You sound almost like you want to hurt yourself as well as him. I really do pray that you both get better. A few people seem to beat the odds. Take care of yourself........charlee


I sent her an email right back. This is my response.....

thanx for a wonderful email.

u posted well tought questions

the main question i will answer - As to telling him the truth...what would it accomplish?

the only answer - Forgiveness starts with the one we hurt the most.

For me, i need his forgiveness to forgive myself.

it is very hard thou, knowing the damage i caused, in spite of the attempted murder

Honesty, i have to live with it every day of my life.

take care

have a nice week.

family

Chillin'

Did you grow up in a small town that you were so bored & felt you had to get away?

In a way, it was kinda like a small town. I never fit in at all. I had no place there.

My family really like it there, but I never did.

We moved there to be closer to my granny in 1977; my dad was killed in a truck accident in 1973.

Mom wanted her family around her.

U know us, kids - We had no choice at all. Mom uprooted the kids to the most boring town ever.


It's too bad that you've lost touch with your family.

not really.

For some, we can't go home again!

That is the God's honest truth!

I didn't felt like i was a part of the family; no structure.


Even though you don't choose to live where they live, you should at least try & keep in touch with them, unless they've done something to hurt you, & even then fences can still usually be mended if both sides are willing to forgive....

That life was THAT FAMILY is over with; I won't ever go back again.

It is just best to remain on my own and NEVER EVER cross path with any of them.

I truly felt like my mom wants to control me, but I can't handle that.

I need to live my own life - FAR AWAY IN ANOTHER CITY.

I wasn't happy at all.

Wade Robson

Loopy

Celeb choreographer Wade Robson, 21, told Sydney's Daily Telegraph newspaper that he visited Neverland Ranch when he was a kid and also slept in the same bed as the embattled singer. "But," he added, "nothing strange happened."

Hello, Wade! I will have to say this.......Dumb, stupid, idiotic, absurb, moronic.

In your own words, "Nothing strange happened."

Hmm, something STRANGE did happened.

Michael Jackson (adult) slept with you and other YOUNG KIDS!

That is beyond strange - it is sickening!

Did you sleep with your father in his bed?

My opinion - it wasn't right for a ADULT to sleep with young KIDS!

The kids have their own bed to sleep on.

Yet, Michael Jackson wants to sleep with kids.

That is sickening indeed!

Cracked Connie

Happy

Kacie Borrowman had big shoes to fill on Passions; in real life, Josh Ryan Evans (Timmy) died from a heart attack on the same day that Timmy died.

Most people really thought Connie was Timmy's replacement on the soap. Nobody really like that. We all want Timmy back! Tabby and Timmy belonged together. Timmy had a special place in Tabby's heart just like his fans.

"I thought it was in distaste to bring them on so shortly after the loss of Timmy :("

I felt the same way, Timmy was a great character.

Suddenly, we have TWO NEW living dolls - Cracked Connie and Cecil.

I learned that Connie was already planned before Timmy's death.

It such an relief to learn that. I have newfound respect for Connie.

Maybe, Connie should come back for a little while.

It was unfortunate that Timmy/Josh died when he did.

Having Connie come on that time MAKES SENCE!

Josh won't be on Passions for THREE months after his heart operation.

Therefore, TPTB created Connie to fill the living doll void till our favourite TIMMY comes back to Passionsl.

If people knew that in the beginning, We will accept The CONNIE DOLL!

34th Birthday

Happy

My 34th birthday was only "another day." I don't do holidays or birthdays! I just stay home and relax, no celebration whatsoever. I will talk about what matters to me the most!

The View announced that Elisabeth Hasselbeck, who finished fourth on Survivor: The Australian Outback in spring 2001, replaced Lisa Ling.

Young & Restless - Phyllis revealed her feelings to her ex husband, Danny, who noticed the change in her. Her life changed alot and came in a full circle - a son! Chris had a talk with Michael about the illegal business dealings with Victor, but he remained mum. Then she waited for Victor to came back on his trip; she wants the truth from him.

Bold & Beautiful - Brooke told Ridge about Sally's blackmail. Sally confronted Brooke about her secret. Ridge put Sally in her place - he already know. Bridget comforted Deacon, who was had by her father, Eric. Bridget/Deacon kissed on the bed; Eric didn't like that one bit.

Oprah's Favourite Things was pretty exciting. The audience applauded the first five minutes; they were awestruck by all the gifts. One black lady almost passed out; she cried too much. Oprah comforted her, "it's all good." That could be my real BIRTHDAY!

I forgot to put the tape in for the Joe Millionaire finale! Oops, I was 20 minutes late. I already know who he picked. It was so easy to find out on the web! LOL.

I watched the special edition of Fear Factor; family. the kids was awesome during on the gross stunts with their parents. all kids were winners in my book. At the end, it was girls vs. boys. I was shocked that the girls won and had the best time! The team they beat won a trip in an earlier stunt.

Country singer Glen Campbell was taken into custody Monday on suspicion of drunken driving after he left the scene of a minor vehicle accident, police said.

The death of 27-year-old actor Jonathan Brandis, who starred in two seasons of Steven Spielberg's "SeaQuest DSV," was a suicide, the county coroner's office said Monday. Brandis, who died Nov. 12, hung himself, the coroner said.

Michael Jackson's offical statement about the child molestion was posted on mjnews.

We can switch cell phone companies with the same cell phone number. I may switch from Sprint PSC next year.

The Change

Worried

The Change
by Kazz Falcon

I noticed a change in me.
So far, no one see it,
I felt it changing my mind too
I couldn't describe it yet.
ONly I know it would get worse later
It reminds me of the street people.
Their minds couldn't be reach within.
I looked out of the window wherever I go.
my mind wandered throughout the fields,
into a deep long lasting mind fracture!
I couldn't keep concertrate on things
let alone people talking to me too.
I speak out of content
Only wondered what I become of the change!

The Couch

Sad

Yesterday, my neighbor asked me if I wanted to buy his couch for $20. He mentioned that the day before. I told him I have to think about it. I hardly have any room in my place. I lived in a single apartment.

He finally showed me the white leather couch. It was nice and comfortable. I can't do anything at all. I was in the middle of something - baking cupcakes and my friends was coming over for the night. Once again, I need to think about it. Peter/Brian came over at the right time. I mentioned the couch. They thought I should get it. Hmm, then where to put the couch?

We rearranged the place - the round table was in the corner, the book shelf was in the middle of the window and the chair was by the dresser. I decided to measure the couch to be sure it will fit. Brian wanted to come along. I brought along some cupcakes. I promised he can have some.

We went upstairs. The guy wasn't there. I told him that I want to measure the couch. The other guy said "The lady's father just brought the couch. Didn't he tell you?" Hell, no! I was disappointed. I wanted a couch for a while, I still want one. Some day, another chance will come a knocking. The thing is that guy should have tell me in the beginning that someone brought the couch. No, he waited till I found out on my own. Drats! Oh well! I had a feeling that couch was stolen. A white leather couch for $20. That' odd.

11/21/03, Friday

Loopy

This morning, I woke up feeling crappy. I didn't feel like to do anything today. It was one of those days that I want to be fully refresh. I watched TV for a little while. Reigs/Kelly had the second Annual Hunkiest Husband Contest. I got bored after thirty minutes. They went all out on the contest; all the men was handsome. There wasn't an Average Joe in sight! Then I watch Good Day Live; it was mostly about Michael Jackson. I was quickly bored with it.

I remembered I need to pick up a package from the post office; they left a note few days ago. I tried out my new CD walkman. I put it in the front pocket of the new bag I brought few weeks ago. I was planing to walk. I changed my mind; I wasn't in the mood or the best shape of me life. I stood on the bus playing the gameboy.

I knew it; my new movies was there! I was glad I brought the bag with me; I didn't want to carry them in my backpack. I went to the next door and put the movies in the bag. There was some people on the sidewalk. I didn't trust them. I tore the address from the box and put it in the bag. They won't know where I live. I didn't wait for the bus. I walked home. My left foot was hurting; I walked slanted on the way home. I need to see the doctor about my foot; better yet, my health.

I watched my soaps; the scenes with Victor Newman and his long lost dad was fabulous. Both actors did a fantastic job. Victor didn't want nothing from him; he just put the old man in his place that family mean everything to him. Nick felt sorry for his daddy; I bet he have some regrets about turning him in for illegal business. Oh well! The Newmans will never be the same.

I watched Passions for a short time. I was so bored with the soap; I switched over to General Hospital. Sonny was expecting Carly home; but she want to her new lover's place instead. Nicolas and his girlfriend was trapped in a room with a bomb. Some guy raced to save them, but the bomb exploded!

This guy knocked on the door. I didn't answer; I wanted to watch South Park. After the movie, I noticed I don't have cable! THANK GOD! I still won't pay the bill; no cable box. I fixed the TV. I found out I can watch my British comedies on Saturdays! In the past, I didn't get them

MTA bus

Ecstatic

Finally, it felt so good to take the buses again! No more five DASH buses and TWO hours to the post office. I know that lots of people was tired from the bus strikes. We need to get up early and waited for the crowded DASH to come along. Most times, the DASH was pack; the bus driver wouldn't pick up any more people from the stops.

I took my normal bus to the post office. The 304 is the express bus on Santa Monica Blvd; it only stops at the main streets - Vermont, Western, Vine, Highland, La Brea and so forth. Damn, I had lots of mail. I haven't check my mail since last week. It was a good thing I put in a change of address on my weekly magazines. I will change the address again in two months.

Michael Jackson

Loopy

Well, Michael Jackson was in trouble with the law once again! The police raided Neverland in the morning on the charges of child molestion again! Boy, history repeats itself. The same thing happen ten years ago.

I will never forget this day at all; the raid was on my oldest sister's birthday. I forgot how old she is. I don't keep in touch with any family. That life was over.

Who ever thought Michael will be in trouble for the same thing? This time, the law is different; it got alot tougher concerning molestion. The boy saw an shrink about Michael; the shrink told the police.

For sure, the case wouldn't die anytime soon. As big Michael Jackson is, it will be a hot topic for months to come. The world would be watching his every move.

Don't forget...........Michael's new CD is out today!

Mario/Luigi

Silly

I was so sick of the news about Michael Jackson. It was on the news all day. I didn't want to stay home for that. I watched the soaps, some of it; the news kept on interupted the soaps.

I was anxious to ride the bus somewhere! I believed the new Mario/Luigi game was out today. I went to Circuit City on the bus. Man, there was few people on the bus. I wasn't suprised; not everyone trust MTA.

Circuit City changed big time; they switched the place around. The games is in the backl they were by the front. I saw the game guide for Mario/Luigi! Yes, I really need that guide! hehe. I didn't see the game anywhere. I asked the worker. He mentioned to look on the shelves! Hello, I did!

I didn't want to leave empty handed! I ended up buy some games for Gamecube. I asked the cashier, "When does the new Mario'Luigi game come out?" She didn't have any ideal. I thought I read it right on the web; it was out already.

I went straight home and played the games. I really like the new games - Lord Of The Rings. I brought the game guide for that game too. These days, we need the guide to learn how to beat the games! I got more memory for the Gamecube; I know I will need it!

I checked Nintendo web site again; the game came out on November 17. I was right. I noticed the new Mario/Donkey Kong game; no details was out. I wondered what the game was about. It should be quite good. Mario/Donkey Kong haven't been in the same game since the 1980's minus the racing games. Maybe, DK wanted revenge on Mario!

The Michael Jackson news didn't die down. It was a good thing I brought the games. I need to tune the news out for a while. We can take so much news.

My Dead Son

Sad

My Dead Son
By Kazz Falcon

My dead son
I heard a shot in his bedroom
I ran as fast I could
I saw blood running down on his forehead
It was too late to save him; he lost lots of blood
I noticed a poem on his bed
"My Great Belief" was frightening enough
He struggled with his sexuality and his belief in God
He must have use all his strength to fight it
He wanted to please his father
He loved God with all his heart
He couldn't be both - Gay and a Christian
Why couldn't he come to me?
I would have help him in any way
He should talk to me
Then again, my Christian beliefs was different from his
It was between God and him, not the three of us
He didn't find the answers he needed from the bible
The gun defeated my dead son


Copyright ©2003 Kazz Falcon

My Great Belief

Sad

My Great Belief
Kazz Falcon

My great belief
I believed in God with all my heart
I struggled with something heavy
It was so heavy that I couldn't do anything
Wouldn't you know it?
I prayed to God daily to get the burden of my chest
So far, nothing has happen
The craving was still there
Why can't I stop those feelings?
Those feelings couldn't be right
It put up a mighty fight
The flesh eats away at my soul
I felt like God abandoned me, I was so alone
He left me for being gay
I must do right in God's eyes
I need to end it for once and for all
I couldn't find any answers in the bible
The gun defeated my great belief


Copyright ©2003 Kazz Falcon

Average Joe

Chillin'

Tonight's Average Joe revealed the latest twist of being average! Throw some HUNKS into the mix and see what guy the girl (Melena) will drool over!

The show started on three groups of two guys competing for a date with Melena for that one night. At the end, three were let go from Average Joe.

Kathy Griffith, oh I love her, explained the game will be change forever with the twist.

Ladies and gentlemen, the HUNK from the first episode is the latest twist along with two other HUNKS! I wasn't suprised by the twist at all. The first hunk was writing on the wall; I knew he will be a twist somehow on the reality show.

Of course, the average Joes doesn't like the twist one damn bit! They knew they won't have a chance against the HUNKS! Everyone will pick the HUNK no matter what. I know I will! lol

I like Average Joe; give this show a chance. You won't regret the Average Joe!

BTW, Average Joe have it own message boards. I wished the other NBC shows get their own boards soon.

MTA Bus Strike

Happy

MTA bus strike is FINALLY over after 35 days.

It was about time too!

I was so damn tired taking the DASH buses to my destinations.

We must give lots of credit to DASH for the hard work.

Without DASH, we won't be able to go to any places.

It took me FIVE DASH buses over TWO HOURS to the post office both ways!

You could imagine how tire I was each time I go out.

Attention: We can ride FREE till November 22, Saturday and our OCTOBER bus passes is good in December.

MTA begins limited bus service last Monday. The full service will be ready by this Thursday.

I have no ideal what buses are limited; MTA haven't put it on the web site.

Stepping Stones

Happy

Stepping Stones
by Kazz Falcon

Stepping Stones
Each stone represent how far I came
Teach me about life
I reached for the next stone
Nothing happen
Something crossed my mind
I can’t leave this stone
I must conquer it on my own
I trusted the stone,
Floating on the water
The next stone, I moved up in life
Each one after that,
Growing to be a better person
I glowed into a light
A shinning light I can be proud
I fought to be on the next one
I lost sight of things
And fell into the water
Every stone disappeared
I reappeared on the same one I started on
By chance, I don’t have to start at the first one
I learned from my mistakes
And earned the stepping stones again


Copyright ©2003 Kazz Falcon

Yesterday/Today

Happy

Yesterday afternoon, The Raven's post gave me an excellant ideal, an ideal may get me in deep trouble. My forever obession may lives on! LOL

I wrote an letter to some old friends, Frank and Kevin, but they won't recognise me. Oh well, that 's fine and dandy. It needs some mystery to the assorted deed!

Evening, Mike dropped by for a while; he wanted to go online. He mentioned he will find out about his HIV test this sunday at the sex club, Slammers. He doesn't like that place. Me either! I have never been! Zone is much my style. I heard Slammers was disgusting. I mentioned that Mike can be tested at Melrose Spa too.

Since Mike and me was close; I showed him the "shocking" letter. Believe me, Mike was beyond shock! He wondered if I came inside. Of course! Miguel and I never use condoms; bareback all the way since the day we met at the bath house, Melrose Spa. We have never talk about HIV either.

This afternoon, I walked to the post office and mail off the letter to my friends in Texas. I wanted to send one to Miguel's sister. For sure, his family will be angry! I will do that later. I want to see if the two friends get my letter. If not, his sister is the next to go.

I changed my mind of going to Vons; there was lots of strikers out. I will get the bread some other time. I didn't want to face the strikers. I wasn't up to them. Yeah, I was running low on the food. Some friend could take me shopping this weekend.

I just went home and watched Passions. Grace finally made her choice after two years; she finally picked her first hubby, David! It was about time. Everyone was sick of the storyline. It should have ended long time ago! Anthonio pondered to his mother about Luis/Sheridan of being lovers behind his back. He asked his mother, Pilar, about those two. Luis showed up and will tell him about their past. Then....we need to wait till Monday for the cliffhanger! ROFL

I haven't watch Days Of Our Lives yet. Tomorrow will do. I was no hurry to watch Days. Friday's, I will watch the episodes during the weekend. I was meaning to wathc Days today but I kept on watching tv shows like The Golden Girls, King Of The Kill, Married With Children, The Simpsons and others.

Raven

Mischievous

Raven responded to The Attempted Murder in the Gay Life forum. He was pretty upset!


1122.2 in reply to 1122.1

"A year and a half ago, I had a lover.

Wonderful, red haired, freckled, smiling and caring man.

A year and a half ago, he died of HIV complications. I'd do anything to get him back.

To think that you knowingly gave this to someone fills me with a hate so black it burns in it's intensity.

I hope you go to a special hell."


I replied back to his post, the best I know how - DEFENSE!

"I'm not the ONLY ONE who does it.

We do have BAREBACK sex everywhere.

Anything goes at the bath houses and sex clubs.

We are already in the special hell.

Earth is one hell I will love to leave!

Raven, at least, the police can't do anything about the attempted murder!"


My replied to him was the most honest truth! Hear that, Raven? People won't stop doing unsafe sex; it was nature of the human flesh.

Attempted Murder?

Sad

Attempted Murder?

I was in an relationship.

I didn't tell him that I was HIV +.

Later on in the relationship, he found out that he was HIV +.

He told me and wanted me to get tested.

A week later, I lied to him saying I took an test which turned out to be HIV +

To this day, he doesn't know that I gave him HIV.

Some people truly believed it was ATTEMPTED MURDER!

I will like to tell him THE TRUTH, but he wants no part of me

Nov 11, 2003, Tues

Happy

I arrived at the post office in West Hollywood by the gay clubs. I didn't know that the post office was closed today. Also, I didn't know today was a holiday, Veteran's Day. I hardly keep up with the holidays; it was just a day for me. Veteran's Day doesn't mean anything to me nor some holidays!

I was mad at myself. I felt like I wasted the morning on the FIVE buses on a TWO HOUR trip! Miguel called me at the post office; he wanted a big favor from me. He need $200; Olga' family was coming down for the day from Whittier. They will eat at California Pizza Place at Hollywood/Highland mall. Miguel really need the money to show them a good time.

He went to the bank on Sunset/Vine; he didn't know the bank or the public places was closed. He did the next best thing; he called me for the money. I mentioned I was at the post office. He wanted to meet him at Hollywood/Highland. I will take the bus. NOT! He demanded me to take a taxi; he will pay for it! Hello, how could he pay? He don't have any money. He was waiting for me.

Well, I decided to take the bus, but I didn't meet him at all. I wasn't comfortable of giving him the money. I waited for the bus at the hospital near the mall. I just wanted to be alone and didn't want to give him the money. After a while, I went to Barnes & Noble at The Grove. I didn't want to ran into him.

Miguel called me couple more times, but I didn't answer the phone. I knew he will be angry at all. It seems like old times - he got himself in a pickle and I need to bail him out. I don't want to be bother with him concerning about any money. He can be angry at me; I really don't care at all. An hour later, it was time to go home.

I got off Sunset/Highland, then I caught the next bus to Hollywood/Vine and finally home. I was glad I didn't ran into him. It will be a while I won't hear from him.

He was pretty mad for failing him! Hey, it wasn't my damn problem!

Miguel

Happy

Miguel called me this evening; he can't get a hold of his sister for tomorrow's lunch date at Hollywood/Highland - Tony was online. I mentioned I will get my mail in the morning. He wanted to see me for lunch. He called me back again - the lunch date was STILL on for his sister and him. Oh well!

He brought up the letter I mailed to his sister earlier this year. I mentioned it was in the past. Miguel shouldn't be worry about the letter or Olga. We grown alot since then and time healed all wounds. He told me that Olga asked him if the letter was true. How could come answer a question like that? It was out of the left field!

It looked like I was a bad guy in their eyes! I really don't care. It doesn't matter one bit at all. I won't defend myself for the letter; the past belonged in the past. It was water under the bridge. Miguel and I was friends; that's what counts the most.

Nov 10, 2003, Mon

Happy

I woke up about 7 AM. An hour later, Brian was the next to get up, then Peter, who want some loving from Brian in bed. They fell back to sleep for a while. Peter took a shower; Brian signed up for classes online. I noticed the phone message - Miguel called me at 2:45 AM. I answered the phone about 8 AM - Miguel wondered about our plans. I mentioned that some friends were over and I will probably be there when they both leave.

I wondered about their plans - Brian heads over to his mother's for his classes and Peter was free today. Brian stayed with his mom for collage during the strike; Brian hated staying at his mom's . Her roomie is an alcoholic. I offered Peter to spend another night without Brian. I won't be here - I probably spend the night with Miguel.

I got dressed, then I realized they will eat at McDonald's. I stayed behind to take a shower and shaved while listened to Madonna. Upstairs neighbor stopped by to use the phone - he mentioned that he already received an eviction noitce from them. Damn, they act too fast. He didn't pay his rent this month. Last friday, someone stole money, wallet and backpack when he had a seizure! That sux! Brian/Peter came back.

Peter went online about the cable tv - some other company is doing the cable deal for my apartment building. I have to talk to the landlord about canceling the cable. I haven't recieve the cable box, nor I paid my bills yet! They promised us a special cable package. So far, they broke the promise!

Miguel called again; we can do it some other time. I have friends over; u know the good host! He sounded disappointed. I was too. I hoped we could spend the day together. Brian noticed I was depressed; I didn't want him to worry. Of course, I lied that everything is fine. Brian left for his mom's about 2:30. A while later, Peter wanted my house key; I wasn't going with him to the library. I gave him my spare. He took another shower; he doesn't want to spend the night with me! Peter went home.

Nov 9, 2003, Sunday

Happy

I played some video games till Mike called me about a train show in Pasadena. I told him that I need to call Brian/Peter. There was no answer at all. I called Mike back on the phone. He asked, "Would I wait for them?" I mentioned no way! They will come in the evening time. I didn't want to wait all day for them to show up. They may not show up afterall.

Mike was on his way; I had a few mintues to get ready. He came soon after. We took the oldest highway to Pasadena. He have been working too hard at work since the bus strike. He was doing more work during the strike. He wants things to get back to normal. I don't blame him at all. One time, he worked on the buses in the cold rain! Damn, I would have work the buses when it stop raining.

We parked in the parking lot; $7 for 16 hours was a good deal. He paid my way; they stamp a green star on our right hand. I haven't never saw so many train in one place before. It was my first train show! I mentioned to Mike that we should go to a toy show, he will have fun there too. I know I will! He brought a train over $100. Thanx God I wasn't a train nut! I just can't afford it, only the video games! Mike knows the trains pretty well in LA - he knows everything about the trains!

We went to the back where everyone was playing with their trains. SOme of them was pretty big. After a while, my ears was arching; the noises was too loud! We had a nice time. He asked me if I want to go home. Nah, I can go to Target with him. We got off the wrong exit, we took the street the rest of the way. We ate at Panda Express first; we were hungry. I took off the teeth to eat; it was hard to eat. We went to Target for a while. He got a DVD for his niece- she was getting married. I brought another gameboy advance with E Reader. I brought Pacman World 2 and Luigi's Mansion. He dropped me off at home. An hour later, Peter/Brian shows up to spend the night with me. We talked, played games and watched our favourite show, Queer As Folks!

Nov 6, 2003, Thurs

Happy

Today was the day I finally see the dentist! I can't wait to get the teeth! Last month, the teeth was to small. Hopefully, I will get them! I supposed to get the teeth last year, but the damn doctor at APLA dentist NEVER EVER hook me up; he was so lazy - meaning he didn't do his damn job! I should give him a hard time.

I lefted my place about 8:30 AM. I didn't want to be late AND I have some errands. I got off Rampart to 6th/Vermont to Wilshire/Western. I went to the bank, then I headed to the check cashing place. I tried to pay the gas bill, but they don't do the gas bills, only the DWP. I filled out the money orders.

I saw a guy put a for sale sign on his car for $3,000. Well, I don't have that kind of money. I played Connect Four till the bus came. I got off Santa Monica and walked to the dentist. She saw me thirty minutes later. She wondered if I lost the teeth. Hello, she told me to come back, the teeth didn't fit! I put them in. Presto, they fits! I lefted the dentist

I called Taylor; his phone was disconnected. I figured he didn't pay his bill; he doesn't have a job. I walked up to Hollywood/Vine to wait for the bus. I called Robert; we talked for a while - Sean doesn't live with him anymore - he was going from place to place; Mike is trying to take care of his grown sister as parent and a friend - his sister never party; Taylor has a new phone number - his ex partner kept on harrassing him; Robert didn't give me his new number. Robert mostly stayed home since the bus strike. He wondered about my teeth. I mentioned I got them today. He was happy for me. He does understands me quite well; I figured my speech was worse, thanx to the teeth.

I got off the bus at 3rd/Western to mail the bills. I walked two blocks. I saw the bus coming and ran across the street. I went to Walgreens for press compact, Mountain Dew and two cupcakes. Eating with the teeth was hard. I will take them out to eat! I went home, tired from the long walk - Rampart to MacArthur Park to home!

Halloween

Friday, October 31, 2003
Mischievous

Today is the last day of the monthly bus pass. It was time to get a new one. I walked all the way to APLA from Rampart/6th. There was no sense of waiting for the Dash bus. I signed in and waited. I noticed a sign in the elevator. They won't give out any bus passes for next month. I stuck around for a moment. I looked for my bank. I thought it was close by. I walked on Wilshire to Western. The bank was on the right side of the street. I walked across the street for some money.

I went to my old.....

I never finished this one........it must have been a snooze! ROFL

Oct 27, 2003, Mon

Happy

This morning, Miguel called me. He just checked in with me. He cleaned his place and mop the floors. He put too much stuff in the mop water. His eyes became too teary, he opened the windows and went out to get some fresh air. He decided to call me about it. He needed to kill some time.

Well, Y&R and B&B wasn't on today. Boo hoo. The news stuck with the wild fires in California! Drats! I was so sick of the news. We won't be able to watch regular TV in the next few days. I want my soaps back! Boo hoo. Days and Passions was on today! At least, I got to watch them. Everyone needs a break from the news. I have never like the news; it is too depressing to watch!

This evening, Mike called me during my favourite show, That 70's Show. He wanted me to do an horoscope reading on the web for him. People, I am not into horoscopes. I have never did a reading before; I wasn't interest of learning at all. It don't fancy me. I don't believe in any of that.

Anyway, back to the reading. I ended up on a wrong site; I mispelled it. Astrology is pretty good about the signs; Mike used it all the time. I looked up a date and time about his boss. He wondered if he should quit his job. Hello, he just asked his boss for an advance and now he wants to quit! He started the job about two weeks ago. His boss doesn't treat his employers right.

I didn't know what I was doing with the reading; the signs and the chart is confusing. Mike showed up when I talked to Miguel; he was happy to hear from me. He told me an story about "someone," how much he loved that person. He started to cry, he still wasn't over me. He does want me back. We can be friends for now. It wasn't a good ideal to get back together. He was still hurting; I left him over a year. I couldn't take it anymore. If I was there, I will give him a big hug, just an friendly hug! Nothing more, nothing less.

I noticed I didn't tape Joe Millionaire! Damn me! I set the timer but forgot to put the tape in! I watched Fear Factor with Michael! Mike can't believed the things they do on that show!

Jeffrey Woodard

Angry

GAY STUDENT SUES CHRISTIAN SCHOOL FOR EXPELLING HIM
(West Palm Beach, Florida-AP) -- An 18-year-old student is suing a private Christian school in Florida, alleging he was expelled three days after he told a teacher he was gay.
Jeffrey Woodard says a teacher pulled him out of Bible class at Jupiter Christian School in West Palm Beach and asked him in confidence if he was gay.
Woodard says that when he answered "yes," a school official called his mother and told her that Woodard couldn't attend an upcoming school retreat unless she and her son met with the school to talk about his homosexuality. ` His mother says the school told them that Woodard could get counseling for his problem, voluntarily withdraw from the school or be expelled. A gay rights activist in Tampa concedes that the school didn't break any law by expelling Woodard, since "discrimination based on sexual orientation" isn't illegal in Florida.


I came upon this article in a forum. Come on now, that isn't right! Jupiter Christian School CLAIMED it wasn't discrimination. Hello, the teacher EXPELLED Jeffery for being gay. They discriminated him for being gay.

Yes, the so called Christain school is private. If someone pay good money for a private school, they have the right to take them to court for ANY discrimination!

The school can't denied his school work; they let their chirstian beliefs interferred with his schooling.

Jupiter Christian School must be ashamed of themselves for MISTREATING another christian who happens to be gay.

Jupiter's email address is info@jupiterchristian.org.


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They rightfully should have expelled him.!!!!!!! It is their school they make the rules. If you don't like it go to another school.!!!!!!! Just because it is a "Christian" school they should go by the "Christian" way. And they did. It states in the bible that it is a sin. So why would they not try and council him through this.

Comment from jae832 - 11/21/03 4:26 PM

Oct 26, 2003, Sunday

Happy

I decided to get rid of the cable. I sent them a letter, "Please cancel my cable. I have never recieve a cable box or the speical package you promised. I have four cable channels - Lifetime, IFC, AMC and Showtime. Furthermore, I won't pay the bill." It wasn't worth the money.

I found the nearest po; few blocks from Vons. I ran into a neighbor on the street. He was shocked to see me outside; he always see me at my place. He mentioned his roomie was shopping. I stopped by to chat with him. He was happy to see me.

Rite Aid had no bread whatsoever. I mailed the letter. I walked in the shade again. A fire truck came roaring down the street & cut through Vons parking lot. Someone need medical help. The strikers observed the action on the street.

I saw my chance; I brought bread for .99 cent. I saved $1.10 with the card. Yes, I crossed the picket line! I was a bad guy! LOL. I hoped for some kind of trouble. I will bring up the MTA strike. Then someone would say, "It is not my problem." Of course, I will shake their hand, "practice what you preach." Oh well, that didn't happen. I came out, the workers was back. A lady said "Hi." That was nice. I went home. Another neighbor, Ron, didn't believed I shopped at Vons. He use the microwave for popcorn. I explained that we got to eat.

A while later, Mike C showed up; he was on call - Sundays was slow. He wanted to see Urban Cowboy; my friend had the movie. He checked his email. He need $20; I didn't have it on me. He mentioned he was sexual active; he felt like he was HIV +. He wasn't scared. I wasn't shock or surprised; I was wild back then. I went to the Zone every weekend when we lived on La Brea.

We saw Mildred Pierce for a short time. The neighbor I saw at the store dropped by; he love Mildred - he didn't have the time to watch the movie with us. We watched Moulin Roule. He took a small nap. He left and came back; he didn't want to go home. He stayed for a little while, then went home.

Aliens Among Us

Silly

Aliens Among Us
By Kazz Falcon

I came from a far, far away place
I changed my identify including my face
I couldn't adapt the new surroundings for a while
People wondered about the truth from The X Files
How would they react by us?
I came in peace; we were dying from our home world
Earth was our new hope for survival
I need to be like them
People wouldn't know the difference
I transformed into a human
So far, they didn't suspect a thing
Then again, the government hid Roswell from their people
They must know about some thing about us
I must continued to act human as much possible
Why can't they leave us alone?
I mean no harm; I want to be left alone
I could offered this world a lot
I know more than they do about the universe
I can't show the real me
They would freak out, perhaps a manhunt
I really hope not, I feared for my safety
Many decades passed, they still want answers about Roswell
I wouldn't speak up
My life depends on earth
I really want my people to live in peace


Copyright ©2003 Kazz Falcon



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You are insane... can I just tell you that! Thanks! Bye :P

Comment from savingtheday88 - 10/26/03 11:10 PM

Cable TV

Angry

Yesterday, I watched Days on tape; I didn't watch it the day before - the post office. For some reason, the TV went snowy. I thought the cable went out. I don't have the cable's phone number; odd than that, I have no ideal what cable company I have. They didn't tell me. Top it all, they didn't even give me a cable box at all. He connected it to the VCR.

I read for a while till I heard a neighbor's voice. He mentioned he still have cable tv. He hung out for a while, checking his email and such. His friend looked into my place and noticed it was Ron at the computer. He thought Ron was at his place. They talked about old times. Ron's friend claimed we met somewhere before. No, I have never saw him before, not even in a rehab center!

They went back to his place. Damn, Y&R was on. I was going to miss it! I pulled out the toolbox. I moved the TV around. Presto, the VCR wire was lose. I felt silly. I thought it was the cable! I fixed the problem. It was so good; I should have fix it earlier! Ron stopped by again; he watched Y&R too since 1992. I watch it since 1986; Nina and Cricket fought over Phillip. Nina became preggie by him. No one really believed her. Kay and Jill teamed up to get rid of Nina. The truth came out - Phillip was, indeed, the father of Nina's baby.

Today, I checked my messages; Miguel called me last night after 1AM. I was sleeping. He won't have time for us. He will take his sister's family out to eat at California Pizza (Hollywood/Highland). They wanted to talk about his niece; her birthday was coming up next week. I called him a few times throughout the day, he wasn't home.

I got a bill from AAA1 Communications. I just realized it was my so called cable bill. They billed a late fee for missing last month. Hello, I have never recieved it nor I had the phone number. The bill is $53.98. I was pretty upset. I won't pay for the damn cable. Why should I pay for something I don't have?

Yes, I have cable, BUT I only have a few cable channels - Lifetime, IFC, Showtime, AMC. Wow, only four channels for $21.99. That's $5 a pop! Like I said, I won't pay the bill. Waterloo Apts supposed to have a SPECIAL cable package, more like a steal! Then again, they are ripping us off big time. We have never got a cable box at all.

Oct 21, 2003, Tuesday

Mischievous

It took me FIVE Dash buses and about three hours to the post office. I left at 8 AM. The bus wasn't that pack. I got off at Rampart and walked to Vermont. I took the bus to Wilshire; most of them got off at 3rd. At the end of the line; I could always get a seat. We picked the people up on 3rd; no one noticed I got on the bus before them.

I walked up to Sunset. I caught the bus to Hollywood. Less people rode this Dash bus. I got off La Cienega and walked in the shade to the post office, then Beverly Center. I might as well look at the new books. I stopped by Kay Bee for the new Mario game; I was a week earlier.

I went to Brentanos; they had the new TV book. I wanted to buy it, wrong book store. Then I went to Borders. I read the TV book; Survivor, Amazing Race, The Bachelor. That was good enough to get the book! I waited in line, there was one cashier. One more finally showed up. I brought out the Barnes/Noble card to save money. He mentioned it was the wrong one. Huh? I was at Borders. Oops! I brought the book anyway.

I thought I was at Barnes/Noble, but it closed down across from the mall. They moved to the new mall, The Grove, on Fairfax. If I didn't buy the book, it will be 6th bus. So far, I took FIVE buses so far. I need to take FIVE buses back home. I waited for the bus at La Ceinega. I sat down to rest from all the heat and the sweat. The heat got to me at every bus stop. I felt like I won't make it throughout the day.

I called Miguel at Hollywood/Highland. He mentioned he took the taxi to work or some worker takes him there and home. He was glad I called him. I missed his call last week. I thought I could stop by for a visit. I need a cool place to rest. He didn't have time for an visit; he was about to get ready for work. He wants to see me this Thursday. I doubt it very much. If we have the heatwave, I will stay home. Damn, the bus on the other side went by three time. We waited for the bus over an hour in the heat!

We stopped at Hollywood/Vine. The bus driver was late. Another bus came up behind us. The bus driver mentioned to get on the other bus, but changed his mind. Along Fountain, we caught up with the other bus; those passangers got on our bus. Now, it was pack! I got off Sunset. I waited for another 30 minutes. I got of Wilshire to Vermont. I got candy and mountain dew at Walgreens. I haven't eat all day. I was home by 5 PM. I didn't feel the well from the heat.