Tuesday, December 16, 2008
Monday, December 15, 2008
Sunday, December 14, 2008
Saturday, December 13, 2008
worst night ever!
Last night was the worst night ever!
I kept on waking up!
I'm tired and sleepy.
I don't want to take a nap during the day.
It will be hard to sleep at night.
I don't like naps.
I think I was too damn hot to sleep.
I had the blanket on me.
That made me hot during the night.
Man, the fan was on too.
I should have sleep like a baby.
Friday, December 12, 2008
mongoos150 crappy weather
Some of u won't get the joke!
Here's a clue.
Nick is leaving the crappy weather behind in Scotland.
Nick is facing crappy weather when he get home to Los Angeles soon.
Rain is coming this week.
Thursday, December 11, 2008
special xmas card
I got a very special xmas card from my best friend.
That was so sweet.
I hoped he calls me soon.
It's too bad he can't come over.
Man, I will give him a BIG HUG and I will kiss him all over!
Yeah, man, yeah!
madrosed working hard - eyes are getting heavy though
Man, do you know what she needs?
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
Monday, December 8, 2008
I got a bright ideal. I got a wire. I stripped off the white part. I used it for my glasses. It's much better than the toothpick. LOL.
I may not have to see the eye doctor. I can buy the mini screw driver glasses kit. I think Walgreens have it. If not, Rite Aid.
11:08 am - abc 7 news.
Noon - I Love Lucy.
I'm freezing my ass off. I need to turn on the heater like now, right now! At this moment in time. I need to eat something too. I missed breakfast. Toast will do great.
I muted the TV. I watched some videos. I ate four toast. Yummy. My tummy was full.
1 pm - Days Or Our Lives
I'm America's White Trash!
This is a toothpick.
America's White Trash!
I noticed something was wrong with my glasses.
I took off my glasses.
The right lens popped out.
I can't believe it.
It have never happen to me before.
The screw was missing from the glasses.
Not my screw lose.
The screw is still in my tiny tiny tiny brain.
That's why I'm using this toothpick.
Hmm, I am America's White Trash.
I have no ideal of when and where I lost it.
Not my screw lose up here.
I looked everywhere for it.
I looked on the carpet, the kitchen and the bathroom.
I couldn't find it any where.
I need to see the eye doctor.
One more time, I am America's White Trash!
aim strange talk
I had a very strange talk on AIM. This one guy IMed me first. Later, he claimed I was someone else. Huh? All this time, I was talking as scareykatt, not someone else.
[01:42:43] *** Auto-response sent to AlchemicalCoho: i dont really like making art nouveau.
[01:42:50] ChrisTopPh34r: hi!
[01:42:50] AlchemicalCoho: hi
[01:43:13] ChrisTopPh34r: whats up?
[01:43:29] AlchemicalCoho: listening to ricky martin. what about u? "
Sunday, December 7, 2008
My sunday have been great so far.
The cops was here earlier.
First, I thought they was here for me.
Hmm, I wondered why.
It look like they arrested a guy for breaking into a apartment or what not.
I've no ideal.
I didn't stick around to find out.
I went to get some bread, milk and cookies.
Other than that, it's a peaceful day.
Saturday, December 6, 2008
I better leave before I get too damn lazy to go anywhere!
11:49 am - Leaving! I waited for bus 4. I got off on Western/Santa Monica. I went to the 99 cent store, not the brand name one. I took down the pink cart. Yes, guys. I like PINK! The cart looked really nice and big enough. I brought it.
I went across the steet to Smart & Final. I put the cart in the shopping cart. I went inside to the cereal section. I grabbed a Frosted Flakes box. I put it inside the cart. That's great! The box can fit into the pink cart. I got one Rice Krispies and two Frosted Flakes. I waited in line. This one lady admired my pink cart. I told her where I got it. I showed her the address. She want to get one for her mother. I brought the stuff. I went outside. A guy begged for some money; he was hungry. I just walked away from him; I didn't want to give him some money.
I waited for the bus. Another lady admired my pink cart. I told her where I got it. I showed her the address. Soon after, another lady likes it too. I told her where I got it. The bus came. I was the last person to get on the bus. Suprising, the bus wasn't that full. The bus left. I saw my chance to get back to the bus. The bus stopped. I went to the back across from the door. I got off at my stop.
1:18 pm - Home.
2 pm - I ate doritos. It was my first time to eat all day.
I listened to music videos for the rest of the day. I hardly watch any TV on the weekends like u didn't know that already. LOL. There's no wonder the major networks stop showing originals on Saturday nights. Only Fox is still striving with the same lineup - Cops and America's Most Wanted - over ten years.
Hi, Charlie's mom.
This is my best friend, Miguel.
My best friend and I went through some rough patches.
It hurts big time.
I killed Miguel.
It was great to get rid of him like that.
I don't have to put him with his alcohol problem.
I can't wait for the second coming of Miguel.
We can start anew.
I missed having Miguel in my life.
Friday, December 5, 2008
This morning, I went shopping at Vons with this cart.
I brought pop tarts, doritos, cookies and chips.
Man, there is one thing missing.
When I got home, I realized I lost the bread on the way home.
The bread was with the doritos.
I didn't know the bread was missing from the bag, Fluffy.
Oops. I forgot to tie the plastic bag.
Miguel ALWAYS told me to tie the bag.
I didn't look for the bread.
It was long gone, Fluffy.
I took the small cart with me. I walked to Vons. Kewl. Doritos is on sale. Finally, I have snacks! I got two bags of Doritos, some bread, Mission chips, three boxes of Pop Tarts and two boxes of Devil's Food cookies. I saved over $10. I went outside and fixed the things on the cart. I walked home.
8:53 am - I was home from groceries shopping. I realized I lost the bread on the way home. Oops. I forgot to tie the bag. Miguel ALWAYS told me to tie. LOL
I changed my mind about the verdict. It wasn't that important to me. We all know that OJ will be sentence to prison for a long time. I really don't care. Instead, I checked the DVDs. It took a while to pick one out, like always. LOL. I have so many to choose from. I finally picked the third season of The Golden Girls.
9 am - The Golden Girls.
I had trouble with the first episode on the third disk. Halfway through, the episode messed up. I checked the disk. DAMN! There was a scratch on the disk. I can't believe it. I haven't watch that disk before. I played it again. The same thing happened again. I went to the next episode. That episode was pretty okay. I watched four episodes, not counting the first one.
11:08 am - ABC 7 news. I saw OJ Simpson pleading with the judge. He claimed he didn't mean it to happen that way; he only want his stuff. He was sentence to 15 years in prison. He will be up for parole in five years.
Noon - I Love Lucy.
I turned on the computer. I muted the TV. I caught up on some videos.
1 pm - Days Of Our Lives.
1:43 pm - Donna called me. She wanted to mail me a xmas card. I gave it to her on the phone and an email. I mentioned I won't do anything for xmas. No tree, no nothing. She got 8 dogs and 5 cats from the animal shelter. She have been doing that for years. She will find them new homes.
2 pm - The Jeffersons.
The last episode gotten to me big time. Louis came from the doctors with bad news. She will live to 100 year old. The catch is Louis feels like a nothing. She didn't DO anything with her life. Oh, man! I really know how she felt. She really want to do something with her life; something worthwhile. She doesn't know what. Me either. Lionel mentioned as a kid when he grows up, he wanted to be a pirate and she wanted to be a nurse. There is nothing stopping her, except her. In my case, I still don't know what to do. She decided to be a nurse for real. I can really relate to Louis. We can learn things about yourself from a TV show like The Jeffersons.
4 pm - ABC 7 news.
4:38 pm - Sad News! I found out that On December 1, 2008, Paul Benedict was found dead at his home in Martha's Vineyard, Massachusetts. He was 70 years old.
I just watched him on The Jeffersons this afternoon. He played Mr. Bently from (1975–1981), (1983–1985).
It's a good thing I watched that show. I like Mr Bentley.
Few remaining cast members are still with us; Sherman Hemsley,
Marla Gibbs, Berlinda Tolbert, Ned Wertimer and Damon Evans.
5 pm - King Of The Hill.
6 pm - Family Guy.
I ate some Devil's Food Cookies with milk.
7 pm - Entertainment Tonight.
7:30 pm - Access Hollywood.
8 pm - I turned on the DVD player. It took me 20 minutes to pick out a show. Yes, it did!
8:20 pm - Diff'rent Strokes.
10:25 pm - KTLA 5 news.
I learned we had a 5.1 earthquake at 8:18 pm this evening. I didn't feel it. The U.S. Geological Survey says the temblor was a 5.5-magnitude that struck just outside Ludlow on Interstate 40, a small town in the Mojave Desert.
tyleroakley When I was 11, I didn't have YouTube to express my inner gaydome... http://tinyurl.com/56k2z7
scareykatt @tyleroakley when i was 11, we didn't have the web to express my inner gaydome...therefore, i got u beaten! oh, yeah! it was just the closet
11 pm - Friends
Thursday, December 4, 2008
Do u think u are really happy when u are not?
I had one of those days.
I should be happy.
I have a good life.
I have good friends.
I have a nice apartment.
I have no troubles at all.
I have no complaints whatsoever.
Life is great.
I have nothing to be sad about.
Yet, I am sad for no reason at all.
Maybe, something is missing from my life.
I don't know what.
It can't be love.
Love is far from my mind.
This alone time is great.
I don't have to worry about anyone else.
It's just me, myself and I.
Wednesday, December 3, 2008
I have to pick up my money and cash a check today. I may probably leave about nine. I'm low on cash.
I haven't been to the post office in couple of weeks. I bet I have lots of crap now.
I left about 8:15 am. I took the rapid to the post office. I was right. I had lots of mail. Some of them was junk. I got a xmas card from my friend in the UK. I need to send her one back. I may buy a new one or use a old one from Miguel. He still have some leftovers.
I waited about the bus stop. I was thisclose of getting some bread and lettuce at Pavilions. I didn't want to take it all over the place on the bus. I will get them later. I caught bus 4; I was no hurry to go home. We came upon Fairfax/Santa Monica. I was tempted to catch Fairfax bus; it was a change from Vermont. Like always, I took the bus to Vermont. I took the bus to Sunset. I got off the bus and walked to the bank. I cashed a check.
Then, I went to Jons for the bread and lettuce. I noticed a sign inside saying all backpacks goes to the front desk. Something like that. I kept my backpack. I believed the lettuce was on sale for 79 cent. I think at Vons it was a little higher. I looked at the bread. Damn! The bread are very expensive; over $2 and higher. It's best to get it at Vons. I brought the lettuce. I took the bus back to Santa Monica. I noticed I was on the same bus I got off; the same small cap was on the floor, near the exit door. I took bus 4 home.
11:03 am - HOME. I turned on the news.
11:30 am - I ate rice krispies with milk.
noon - I Love Lucy
1 pm - Days Of Our Lives
2 pm - I watched Soap on dvd.
4:48 pm - I watched news 7 again.
I caught up on some videos.
5: 30 pm - I ate a salad for supper.
6:30 pm - King Of Queens.
7 pm - Everyone Loves Raymond.
7:30 pm - That 70's Show.
8 pm - Rudolph the Red-Nosed Reindeer.
9 pm - Get Smart
10 pm - KTLA news.
Tuesday, December 2, 2008
Monday, December 1, 2008
2:33 pm - Falcon called me on the phone. I haven't talk to him in a long time. He is homeless for a long time. It was good to hear from him. I did nothing for thanksgiving. He wished he have known that; he would have come over and cook thanxgiving for me. Aaahhh, that was sweet of him.
I told him he need to pay a bill. He missed it last month. Now, the bill is $158. Sadly, he doesn't have the money again. Once again, I offered to pay the bill. I wondered when I can see him. We haven't spend some time alone in a while. He couldn't right now; he must follow the rules and do the buddy. We continued talking for a while. We hung up.
Hmm, a great ideal came! Maybe, I could suprise him at the library. He can fill out the paper work for me. That's a great excuse to see him. I got dress and put the papers in the fanny pack. I grabbed the water. I zoomed out the door. I hoped he haven't left the library with his friend.
I went to Lucy's for a money order. I walked in Lucy's. I noticed no one was in the line. I ran up to the window. Damn! Some lady was already there. She took a while. Hurry up, lady! I don't want to miss him. I looked at the front door and the side door back and forth. Don't let the bird fly by. Falcon must sign the papers for me. I got my $158 money order. I went through the front door. Nope, I didn't see him in the street. Hopefully, he was at the library.
I walked fast. I wondered if I should go through the back door. I decided to use the front instead. This is my first time to be at this new libary. It opened up few years ago. I walked in the library. I looked around. Hmm, this one guy look familiar to me. I could be wrong thou. I slowly walked up to the person. Yes, it's my old friend, Falcon! He looked quite different since the last time I saw him.
I gave him the papers to fill out. I have no ideal how to fill out the papers. Falcon is the expert. I didn't want to mess up the papers. He was very suprise to see me. He was NOT expecting it. I wanted to suprise him. It was so good to see him. He was looking much better now. He offered me to sit down. I sat across from him. There was two old guys at the same table. One old guy use his laptop. He hugged me.
Falcon mentioned he was with his friend. He was looking at some books; he was close of getting his GED. He dropped out of school long time ago. I think his finals is next week. He can't wait to graduate. The friend have been at the same homeless shelter. over eight months.
I wondered if he need some money. I was about to give $20. He only watch some change to use the phone. I looked at the fanny pack. I grabbed some change. I put the coin purse on the table. Falcon noticed some dollars in the purse. He took all the dollars and the change.
He finished the paper work and the money order. It was all set for the post office. I told him I would mail it tomorrow morning. He mentioned his friend is in black clothes. I saw him coming toward us. He seems like he is ready to head back to the homeless shelter. Falcon and I hugged again. We parted ways. I walked by his friend and wave at the friend. I walked out the library. I walked up the street. I put the papers in the fanny pack. I looked back; they were walking the same way as me. I noticed the bus was coming. I wanted to yell at Falcon; taking the bus to the post office. The bus turned the corner. I ran to the bus stop. I hopped on the bus.
The bus stopped by Vons. The bus driver got off the bus; a new bus driver took his place. I got off the bus. I walked to the post office. It was a long line. More people got in line behind me. Now, the line was at the door. I waited for a while. I gave them the mail with the one dollar. Stamp please. I paid for the stamp. She gave me my change. I went outside for home. Falcon's mail was on it's way. It was a very long walk home. I got home about 3:51 pm. I was very tired and sweating. I sat on the couch with the fan on me.
Sunday, November 30, 2008
I didn't feel like going to church. I haven't been to this gay church in a long long time. That was few years ago when Pastor Nancy gave up the church took over and another pastor took over. I wouldn't say Pastor Nancy gave up; she got an promotion within the church orginization. I forgot what the promotion was.
When my old friend, Milton, visited me on the Barrack winning election day, I learned the church moved to a new location in Hollywood, near me, about 15 minutes on the bus. All this time, I have no ideal MCC moved to Hollywood. I figured they will stay in the gay neighborhood. They was right by the main clubs on Santa Monica Blvd.
I like Pastor Nancy very much. It wasn't the same with the new pastor. It didn't felt right. Pastor Nancy brought so much to the church.
Here is Rev. Nancy talking at the 40th Anniversary on October 6, 1968.
I did the same thing I did yesterday - watch videos! Ooohh! Very exciting!
Saturday, November 29, 2008
I hardly have any friends to hang out with. Brian & Pete lives in the valley. They are very busy with their own lifes. Miguel is long gone; I killed Miguel last month. I don't have to put up with the alcohol problem. Killing Miguel was the best thing I ever did this year. Those three are my main friends. I lost touch with the other friends. I haven't see Mike or Taylor in years. Robert died from cancer about two years ago.
It is just me at the moment. Sadly, with no life at all. I am so dead right now. I wished I have more friends to hang out with.
I had frosted flakes with milk for lunch. I had pasta for supper.
All day long, I watched videos on youtube. I hardly watch TV on the weekends till Sunday night. There is nothing to watch. Sometimes, I will watch DVDs.
I found an subscription on youtbe. I couldn't think of his name for a few months. I realized watching the road trip videos, it may come back to me. Which it did an hour later! The name came to me out of the blue. It was lifejourneyguy. I enjoyed his videos very much. You guys will like his videos too. While you are at it, please subscribe to him.
Friday, November 28, 2008
I do REALISTIC art.
Realistic is the key.
There's no wonder that the OTHER video site banned me!
To be a successful artist, u need to show the emotions as THAT person.
Just like the actors.
The art must be as good as the actors - very REALISTIC.
police & bloody pants
I have a message on November 24, 2008, my birthday.
He said, "You killed Miguel, You are going to prison forever. The police have been called and they have all of the information and all the videos. They will be coming to get you soon. Good bye Kazz, have fun in San Quentin..."
Man, I don't believe that.
The police will not arrest me.
It have been a few days since November 24.
By now, the police would have come to my place.
That tell me one thing.
The police does not have any evidence.
I'm in the clear of any wrong doing.
Then again, I must get rid of the bloody pants before the police stop by.
See all the blood.
Man, I can not let the police get their hands on the bloody pants.
I will throw them away.
I can toss the pants in the ocean.
They will sink down to the bottom of the ocean.
Man, that is a great ideal.
Then, the police can not arrest me.
I will be free, free, free forever.
This pants right here.
I need to throw them away soon before the police come here.
Man, this is the only thing I need to get rid of.