Tuesday, September 30, 2008

The End Of My Rope

I was tired and beaten.
My addiction worn me down.
Can’t you see my frown?
I shed a tear of millions.
My boss noticed I wasn’t doing a good job.
I mentioned I couldn’t get any sleep.
He knew better than that.
He released me from my duties.
He promised my job would be waiting for me.
Throughout the years, I was at many rehab centers.
I couldn’t escape my addiction.
It took control of my life.
No matter how hard I try, I wasn’t able to stop.
I always go back to heroin.
The habit was hard to break.
I injected it in the arm with a needle.
It made me to feel so good.
I don’t have a problem in the world.
The heroin was the one I wanted the most in life.
I didn’t care about anything else.
I continued to lose everything AND everyone.
I couldn’t handle what I became.
I felt very bad that it truly cost me my life.
It was the end of my rope.

Monday, September 29, 2008



Miguel mentioned he want to move to his OWN apartment.

that will be good for the both of us.

we are both tired of the fighting.

I can't wait when he moves.

I can focus on my life once again.

Knowing Miguel, he won't be able hold down his NEW apartment and his job.

it is ALREADY written in stone.

When that happens, I won't show him any mercy.

he won't be welcome to stay at my place.

not even to sleep.

it is time to regain my life.

Saturday, September 27, 2008

This is MY life

This is MY life.

This is Miguel's life.

This is OUR LIFE together.

Who lives in a VICIOUS cycle?

Who believe that Miguel is drinking to his death?

Who did he made homeless before?

Who is suffering from his alcohol problem?

Who does he guilt trip?

Who is living in pain?

Who is always there for him?

Who always kick him out of my place?

Who is sick and tired of his alcohol problem?

Who wants his life back?

Who is wasting time with him?

Who babysit him?

Who is crying every night?

Who is trying their best to save his life?

Who does he goes to after an hospital stay?

Who nurse him back to health?

Who cook for him?

Who feed him?

Who bathe him?

Who cares for him?

Who helps him?

Who wash his clothes?

Who is letting him die from the alcohol?

Who is not stopping him?

Who have a history with him?

Who feels sorry for him?

Who is STUPID enough to take him back?

Who is his lover?

Who does he share his life with?

Who took him in when no one else will?

Who took money from him?

Who is addiction to his alcohol problem?

Who enabling his alcohol problem?

Who is having a hard time with his alcohol problem?

Who is feeling hopeless?

Who is feeling lost?

Who is feeling sad?

Who is feeling alone?

Who put up with his alcohol problem?

Who is not happy?

Who could lose HIS apartment?

Who loves him?

Who does he disrespect?

Who does he come to DRUNK?

Who writes about him in the diary?

Who took pictures of him?

Who videotape him?

The answer is ME!

This is OUR LIFE together.

This is Miguel's life.

This is my life.
Copyright © 2008 Kazz Falcon. All rights reserved.

this is MY life

Friday, September 26, 2008

Is it WRONG?

Is it WRONG?

Talking about your life?

Yes or No.

Taking pictures of your life?

Yes or No.

Writing about your life in a diary?

Yes or No.

Taking video of my life?

Yes or No.

If you answer, "No,".......

is it WRONG?

David Hasselhoff/Taylor Ann's drunken video

The 16-year-old daughter of David Hasselhoff, Taylor Ann, recorded the video and can be heard speaking to David on it, after a night of heavy drinking by her father in an attempt to show him what he gets like when he drinks and "scare him straight."

With the videos, I'm hoping that Miguel will see how much he is hurting others and see that his life is out of control.

Maybe, just maybe, Miguel would get the help he needs.

So far, he does not want any help whatsoever.

Talking to Miguel about his drinking is talking to a brick wall.

Time and time again, talking to him is not working at all.

Hopefully, the videos will open up his eyes that he need professional help.

Perhaps, someone would see the videos on the web and offer some guidance AND professional help for Miguel.

Sadly, I am getting NOWHERE with him.

Someone need to talk to him in person and give him a good talking to.

Thanx to his daughter's video, David got the help he needs. That's what I'm aiming for.

Thursday, September 25, 2008

Why Am I Here?

This was posted on vloggerheads.

Why Am I Here?

last month, Youtube suspended me for NO REASON at all.

I saw Renetto's vloggerheads video on youtube.

I became interest.

Then, Renetto sent me an invite.

I have been here ever since.

Speaking of youtube, my friend called me last night.

Brian wondered how i am doing WITHOUT youtube.

youtube was a BIG PART of my life this past year.

it was hard for not having youtube any more.

I ecstatic told my friend that vloggerheads is my new video home!

vloggerheads came into my life at a great time.

EXCLUSIVE - home drunk home

Miguel called me from Lucy Laundrymat on Sunset Blvd in Echo Park.

I picked him up.

Oh, man!

He was beyond drunk.

He was so WASTED!

home drunk home

EXCLUSIVE - Miguel got a ticket!

You heard it first.

Miguel got a ticket for jaywalking across the street.


His life is still falling apart.


He is a fucking alcoholic.

jaywalking ticket

Joy Behar on The View

John McNain wants to suspend the debate.

It does NOT make any sense at all.

I watched THE VIEW.

Joy Behar mentioned that "a president have five things to deal with.

John McBain can do the congress and the debates at the SAME TIME!"

I agreed with Joy!

Wednesday, September 24, 2008

wishing death on someone is NOT funny at all

wishing death on someone is NOT funny at all.


I'm NOT wishing for his death.

I am being REALISTIC!

Miguel is an alcoholic.

He does NOT want to stop.

Therefore, he wants to drink to his death!

let miguel die

Some people want to die.

Miguel is one of those people.


After all, he wants to drink to his death!

let miguel die

once a person is judge in certain fashion

once a person is judge in certain fashion, that's how your mindset going to be forever. that is a shame.

I agreed with that statement.

We need to get pass "once a slut, always a slut. once a thief, always a thief."

We can't think that way.

QUESTION - How can people trust people when they still feel ""once a slut, always a slut. once a thief, always a thief??"

Years ago, I shoplifted at a store.

Yes, I was caught and spent the night in jail.

Nowadays, no one seems to trust me.

Everyone makes mistakes


I can't seem to get a break.

Diry looks here!

Dirty looks there!

Dirty looks everywhere!

Some people does NOT want to hire a CRIMINAL either.

The moment, they see it on the job application, they will throw it away in the trash!

That's a shame.

Like I said, I already PAID for the crime.

I am hard working!

Tuesday, September 23, 2008

Why do I steal from Miguel??

Miguel will buy alcohol, get fucking drunk and pass out on my couch.

He is a FUCKING alcoholic.

That's the truth!

He is a FUCKING alcoholic.

Whenever Miguel have money, he will spend it on ALCOHOL.

He does NOT want to stop drinking.

He is NOT able to hold down an apartment.

He is NOT able to hold down a job.

He does NOT want to go to rehab.

He does NOT want to go to AA meetings.

He is a lost cause.

You will probably do the same thing in my shoes.

You got to do what you got to do.

Sometimes, we need to lie, cheat, steal and kill.

Monday, September 22, 2008

2008 September 22 Phone Calls

I wouldn't pick up the phone.
This is Miguel's calls.
He begged for his work shoes and pants.
I don't care if he lose his job or not.

2008 September 22 Phone Calls

$45 richer!

$45 richer!

Miguel checked his bag.

I admitted I stole HIS MONEY.

He demanded his money back.I refused.

Yes, I know stealing is wrong.

My point is...whenever Miguel have money, he drinks.

In closing, I told him that "time and time again, do not come home drunk!"

Sunday, September 21, 2008

how would u like to die??

I always wanted to die in my sleep.
There won't be any pain.
My granny died in her sleep.
It was peaceful to die like that.

how would u like to die??

Saturday, September 20, 2008

Denied Alcoholic

Denied Alcoholic
By Kazz Falcon

Say it with me.
I don’t have a drinking problem.
Say it again.
I don’t have a drinking problem.
Once more.
I don’t have a drinking problem.
Yes, some friends believed I had one.
What do they really know about me?
My life was perfect in every way.
I had a wonderful boss, beautiful place and cool friends.
I was so freaking happy with my life.
I don’t have any problems at all.
I paid my rent and bills on time.
I was never late at my job.
Still, they can’t get it out of their minds.
I was able to hold onto everything.
My life was under control.
Come on now.
I don’t have a drinking problem.
Say it.
Yes, I partied at the clubs every weekend.
I was a social drinker.
Please check out reality poems.


I have the spirit of an alien.
I need to find my own kind.
I must shed off the dreadful human skin.
It is very uncomfortable.

Friday, September 19, 2008

Close Call - white shirt & leather coat

2004, March 4, Thursday - I have a quicky funny SCAREY story to tell u from this morning!

I ran into some trouble with the police at the bus stop.

I was on my way to pick up my mail at the post office in West Hollywood.

I waited for the bus on La Cienega/Wilshire, playing the Tetris game on gameboy.

I looked up and noticed the police got out of the car.

I figured they were going somewhere.

They went straight to me and.........presto, i was an suspect! lol

They wanted to see me ID.

At first, I refused.

I wanted to know why.

They asked me if I was sptting on people.

I said, "No."

They asked me for my ID again; I gave them my bus ID.

They continued to ask about spitting.

I told them many times "NO, I did not spit on anyone!"

They didn't believed me at all.

The police mentioned he wore a white t shirt and a leather coat!

For a moment I was worried.

I got scared.

So badly, I wanted to run away.

It really look like I did the spitting on someone.

I was also wearing a white t shirt and a leather coat!Of course, they thought I really did it!

The black guy who called the police showed up and confessed I was not the one!

The spitting guy had CURLY HAIR, white t shirt, the leather coat and BLACK sunglasses!

I was so gay happy that I was off the hook, thanx to the black guy.

I don't have CURLY HAIR or black sunglass; my hair is short and I am FOUR EYES FREAK! lol

If that black guy didn't show up; I bet I will end up in jail for the weekend!


It could have been worse!

The spitting guy could have robbed a bank or something bad!

Thanx God that it was not a MAJOR CRIME!

5¢ phone bill

5¢ phone bill

Can someone please LOAN me 5¢??

I can't afford to pay my phone bill.

I'm good for 5¢.

Thursday, September 18, 2008

Life Is…

By Kazz Falcon

Life is
happiness and sadness.

Life is
be yourself and living a lie.

Life is
reality and fantasy.

Life is
between a rock and a hard place.

Life is
a joy and an tragedy.

Life is
an adventure and boring.

Life is
destiny and fate.

Life is
positive and negative.

Life is
a gamble and a risk.

Life is
Hell and Heaven.

Life is
live in fear and conquer the fears.

Life is
open minded and close minded.

Life is
naughty and nice.

Life is
struggles and making it.

Life is
a failure and a success.

Life is
being alive and death.

Life is
a baby, a kid, a teen and a adult.

Life is
being careful and living dangerous.

Life is
choices and mistakes.

Life is
love and lust.

Life is
friends and enemies.

Life is
clean and dirty.

Life is
war and peace.

Life is
the city and the country.

Life is
working and an holiday.

Life is
young and old.

Life is
hurting and healing.

Life is
murder and mayhem.

Life is
the past, the present and the future.

Life is
dreams and nightmares.

Life is
strong and weak.

Life is
the truth and lies.

Life is
wealthy and poor.

Life is
sick and healthy.

Life is
known and unknown.

Life is
good and bad.

Life is
eating and starving.

Life is
curse and blessing.

Life is
destroy and building.

Life is
home and homeless.

Life is
sober and not sober.

Life is
love and hate.

Life is
single and married.

Life is
pregnant and unwed.

Life is
abortion and birth.

Life is
guilty and innosence.

Life is
winning and losing.

Life is
laughing and crying.

Life is
what you make the most out of it.

Wednesday, September 17, 2008

I am an artist

I am an artist.

The paintings with words suits me.

I will be famous.

"An artist should have a WIDE RANGE OF EMOTIONS, that is what i love about art" - Sammy

I just posted a video called I am an artist

whatever you do, please do NOT take everything serous and do NOT believe everything u read.

My art is based on the realistic world we live in whether it is rape, suicide, murder, peace, dreams, friends, love and such.

"An artist should have a WIDE RANGE OF EMOTIONS, that is what i love about art" - Sammy

Sunday, September 14, 2008

2008 Chatsworth Metrolink collision

I found this to be very FUNNY.

I heard on the news that the engineer was TEXTING on his cell phone.

Few months ago, we passed a law in california stating "no talking on the cell phone."

Yet, people can STILL txt on the phones!

I say THE BLAME goes to the lawmakers.

If the TXT was against the law, the accident will NEVER ever happen at all.

Why couldn't TXT be added to the cell phone law in the beginning?

Thursday, September 11, 2008

9/11 Something FUNNY!!

I just watched the news.

Something funny and strange happened.

CBS, NBC and ABC did NOT show the LIVE 9/11 feed with George Bush.

Only the locals (5 and 11) showed it.

CBS, NBC and ABC stayed with their morning news programs.

The networks usually do the "breaking news."

Sadly, not this time.

I really thought the networks will cover the LIVE feed.

Monday, September 8, 2008

Third Warning - Youtube suspended me FOREVER!

Today, I recieved my THIRD warning from youtube.

Like always, they did NOT give me a reason.

I don't get the stupid YOUTUBE warning.

This is my THIRD warning.

The following video(s) were found to be in violation of the YouTube Community Guidelines:

Fastest Video Ever - (scareykatt)

Because this is the third violation of the Community Guidelines in six months and you have received previous warnings, your account has now been terminated. Please be aware that you are prohibited from accessing, possessing or creating any other YouTube accounts.

For your reference, a copy of this message has also been emailed to the address associated with this account.


The YouTube Team

what the hell are they are talking about?

"third violation of the Community Guidelines in six months?"

six months?

I posted the "Fastest Video Ever" on October 14, 2007.

There was ELEVEN months ago.

Fastest Video Ever contains NO voilence, abuse, hateful, sexually explicit content, spam and such.

Fastest Video Ever contains NO voilence, abuse, hateful, sexually explicit content, spam and such.


what is THEIR reason they suspended me?

there was nothing wrong with the fastest video ever!

I did NOT cross the line with that video.

This is the YouTube Community Guidelines

Respect the YouTube Community

We're not asking for the kind of respect reserved for nuns, the elderly, and brain surgeons. We mean don't abuse the site. Every cool new community feature on YouTube involves a certain level of trust. We trust you to be responsible, and millions of users respect that trust, so please be one of them.

We Review Videos Flagged As Inappropriate

Okay, this one is more about us than you. When a video gets flagged as inappropriate, we review the video to determine whether it violates our Terms of Use—flagged videos are not automatically taken down by the system. If we remove your video after reviewing it, you can assume that we removed it purposefully, and you should take our warning notification seriously. Take a deep breath, read our Terms of Use and try to see it from our perspective. If you find other videos on YouTube with the same violations, please flag them so we can review them as well!

Don't Cross the Line

Here are some common-sense rules that will help you steer clear of trouble:

YouTube is not for pornography or sexually explicit content. If this describes your video, even if it's a video of yourself, don't post it on YouTube. Also, be advised that we work closely with law enforcement and we report child exploitation. Please read our Safety Tips and stay safe on YouTube.

Don't post videos showing bad stuff like animal abuse, drug abuse, or bomb making.

Graphic or gratuitous violence is not allowed. If your video shows someone getting hurt, attacked, or humiliated, don't post it.

YouTube is not a shock site. Don't post gross-out videos of accidents, dead bodies and similar things.

Respect copyright. Only upload videos that you made or that you are authorized to use. This means don't upload videos you didn't make, or use content in your videos that someone else owns the copyright to, such as music tracks, snippets of copyrighted programs, or videos made by other users, without necessary authorizations. Read our Copyright Tips for more information.

We encourage free speech and defend everyone's right to express unpopular points of view. But we don't permit hate speech (speech which attacks or demeans a group based on race or ethnic origin, religion, disability, gender, age, veteran status, and sexual orientation/gender identity).There is zero tolerance for predatory behavior, stalking, threats, harassment, invading privacy, or the revealing of other members' personal information. Anyone caught doing these things may be permanently banned from YouTube.

Everyone hates spam. Do not create misleading descriptions, tags, titles or thumbnails in order to increase views. It's not okay to post large amounts of untargeted, unwanted or repetitive content, including comments and private messages.

Please take these rules seriously and take them to heart. Don't try to look for loopholes or try to lawyer your way around them—just understand them and try to respect the spirit in which they were created. Violations of the Terms of Use may result in a warning notification or termination of your account. If your account is terminated you are prohibited from creating any new accounts.

YouTube is for the Community

Remember that this is your community! Each and every user of YouTube makes the site what it is, so don't be afraid to dig in and get involved!
Have fun with the site. There's a lot here to see, and lots of folks making amazing stuff—one of them might be you! Equipment's getting cheaper and easier to use all the time, so dive in and enjoy.

Let folks know what you think. Feedback's part of the experience, and when done with respect, can be a great way to make friends, share stories, and make your time on YouTube richer. So leave comments, rate videos, make your own responses to videos that affect you, enter contests of interest—there's a lot going on and a lot of ways to participate here.
You may not like everything you see. Some of the content here may offend you—if you find that it violates our Terms of Use, then click "Flag as Inappropriate" under the video you're watching to submit it for review by YouTube staff. If it doesn't, then consider just clicking on something else—why waste time watching videos you don't like?

That's it! Thanks for reading!

—The YouTube Team

Saturday, September 6, 2008

Each TV Season

Note: This is only PRIME TIME. The Tonight Show won't be on the list.

Syndication series is a part of the list.

60 Minutes hold the record for being the leader of the pack with most seasons from 1988–present. There is no stopping the stopwatch.

Sabado Gigante deserved a special mention on this list. The Univision show and the host, Don Francisco, are still going strong 40 years and counting. Sabado Gigante is the longest running variety show in TV history.

Each Season – Longest Running Series

1950 – Gillette Cavalcade Of Sports, Kraft Television Theatre & Small Fry Club – 5

1951 – Gillette Cavalcade Of Sports & Kraft Television Theatre – 6

1952 – Gillette Cavalcade Of Sports & Kraft Television Theatre – 7

1953 – Gillette Cavalcade Of Sports & Kraft Television Theatre – 8

1954 – Gillette Cavalcade Of Sports & Kraft Television Theatre – 9

1955 – Gillette Cavalcade Of Sports & Kraft Television Theatre – 10

1956 – Gillette Cavalcade Of Sports & Kraft Television Theatre – 11

1957 – Gillette Cavalcade Of Sports & Kraft Television Theatre – 12

1958 – Gillette Cavalcade Of Sports – 13

1959 – Gillette Cavalcade Of Sports – 14

1960 – Ed Sullivan – 14

1961 – Ed Sullivan – 15

1962 – Ed Sullivan – 16

1963 – Ed Sullivan – 17

1964 – Ed Sullivan – 18

1965 – Ed Sullivan – 19

1966 – Ed Sullivan – 20

1967 – Ed Sullivan – 21

1968 – Ed Sullivan – 22

1969 – Ed Sullivan – 23

1970 – Ed Sullivan – 24

1971 – Death Valley Days – 20

1972 – Death Valley Days – 21

1973 – Death Valley Days – 22

1974 – Death Valley Days – 23

1975 – Walt Disney & The Lawrence Welk Show – 22

1976 – Walt Disney & The Lawrence Welk Show – 23

1977 – Walt Disney & The Lawrence Welk Show – 24

1978 – Walt Disney & The Lawrence Welk Show – 25

1979 – Walt Disney & The Lawrence Welk Show – 26

1980 – Walt Disney & The Lawrence Welk Show – 27

1981 – Walt Disney & The Lawrence Welk Show – 28

1982 – Walt Disney – 29

1983 – The David Susskind Show – 23

1984 – The David Susskind Show – 24

1985 – The David Susskind Show – 25

1986 – The David Susskind Show – 26

1987 – Wild Kingdom – 21

1988 – 60 Minutes – 21

1989 – 60 Minutes – 22

1990 – 60 Minutes – 23

1991 – 60 Minutes – 24

1992 – 60 Minutes – 25

1993 – 60 Minutes – 26

1994 – 60 Minutes – 27

1995 – 60 Minutes – 28

1996 – 60 Minutes – 29

1997 – 60 Minutes – 30

1998 – 60 Minutes – 31

1999 – 60 Minutes – 32

2000 – 60 Minutes – 33

2001 – 60 Minutes – 34

2002 – 60 Minutes – 35

2003 – 60 Minutes – 36

2004 – 60 Minutes – 37

2005 – 60 Minutes – 38

2006 – 60 Minutes – 39

2007 – 60 Minutes – 40

2008 – 60 Minutes – 41

TV Seasons.......unlike any blog and web site you NEVER EVER read.

Copyright © 2008 Kazz Falcon. All rights reserved.

Any reproduction, duplication, or distribution in any form is expressly prohibited.

Friday, September 5, 2008

something came in the mail!

this afternoon, i recieved the last three seasons of The Golden Girls!

I love that show!

I'm so happy I have all SEVEN seasons now!

Also, I got Microsoft Office Home 2008.

I want to get back into writing again.

I probably have over 500 poems!


I'm the world's worst writer!



By Kazz Falcon

I am homeless.
I came upon bad times.
I wasn't an alcoholic or a druggie.
I lost my job.
The boss laid me off after 10 years.
I couldn't find another job.
I never thought I will be homeless.
Man, I still can't believe it.
I can't stand living on the street.
It was very dangerous.
I saw things that can get me kill.
I tend to stay away from those people.
Some of them can't be trusted.
They will rob you blind.
I don't want to continue living in a shelter.
I can't sleep at night.
The food was bad.
There was some nuts in the joint.
I really need help.
I was scared to death.
By the grace of God, I will not be homeless.

shortest video ever

shortest video ever

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Wednesday, September 3, 2008

same TOPICS for my blogs and vlogs

I used the same TOPICS for my blogs and vlogs.

Some people does NOT understand me at all.

That is why i do BOTH vlogs and blogs with the same topic.

I want my life back too

My God!
I want my life back too.
I wished the problem will go away.
Yet, it remains in my life.
I can't escape the problem.
It keep on coming back no matter what.
I have too much anger.
I want to bust up some things.
It have control over my life.
It is driving me crazy.
I have enough with it.
I'm very sad.
It's a vicious cycle that I can't seem to break from.
There is no way out of the situation.
I can't take it any more.
I can't go on living like this.
I need to end it some how and some way.
I don't want to live with it any more.
I decided to end it for once and for all.