feeling guilty

feeling guilty

I did something stupid. I haven't hear from Miguel in a while. I stopped by Lucy's to see if he was there. He wasn't. In a way, I felt badly the way we left things on Thursday morning. He wanted to get some clothes and the money I stole from him. I turned him away quickly. We parted ways.

He forced my hands big time on Wednesday night. His drinking problem got me into BIG TROUBLE. Yesterday, I got my first apartment warning. I'm not worry about it. Miguel won't be coming around any more. He only got himself to blame. I mentioned over a million of times to stop coming to my place DRUNK! Yet, he kept on showing up DRUNK.

I kinda miss him, but not his drinking. I could do without it. I still think about him once in a while. I wondered what happened to him. Is he is in the hospital again? Was he kill? Did a car hit him? Did he move in with another friend? Is he in jail for intoxicated? WHO KNOWS?

I felt guilty. I felt reponsible too. I shouldn't feel either, but I do. I need to stop feeling responsible and guilty. It is quite hard. We have been together since 1999 on and off. We had lots of history.

I hoped I could run into him at Lucy's this evening. I don't have to talk to him. I could look at him, knowing he may not doing that well. Yes, I would cry secretly. Hopefully, he LEARNED his lesson by now and went to rehab.

$45 richer!

$45 richer!

Miguel checked his bag.

I admitted I stole HIS MONEY.

He demanded his money back.I refused.

Yes, I know stealing is wrong.

My point is...whenever Miguel have money, he drinks.

In closing, I told him that "time and time again, do not come home drunk!"

Cheap Bastard Pete

cheap bastard pete

Pete came over for a little while.
We spent the day together.
I need to get away from Miguel and his drinking.
"How much do you want for gas?" I asked.
"$15," Pete said, cheaply.
I laughed.
I gave him $25 for gas.
I mentioned I stole the money from Miguel.
Pete vowed that he will NOT take the money!
LOL

Miguel Stole Money From Me

miguel stole money from me

WARNING! WARNING!

I screamed at Miguel!

I confronted Miguel this morning.

It was no April Fool's Joke!