It's time to end a life - our lifes together. I will tell him in a letter and give it him on the bus. Sadly, there may be a huge scene! Perhaps, give him the letter once he get outside. I need to make myself perfectly clearly that it's THE END of us for once and for all. I want no part of his alcohol problem. He made his choice and I made mine. I'm better off without him. I must come first in my life.
5:13 AM - Miguel woke up. He used the restroom. He turned on the TV. I got up from the bed. I went online.
5:31 AM - I saw a message from madrosed.
madrosed @scareykatt Thanks so much!
5:47 AM - Miguel turned off the TV. He went back to sleep.
5:54 AM - I left a message for mongoos150 on twitter.
Mongoos150 Just woke up. Ugh getting sick...
scareykatt @Mongoos150 Don't you hate that? getting sick. we need to take care of ourselves. we must come FIRST in our lifes. it's time to end a life.
6:18 AM - I saw a tweet from buckhollywood.
buckhollywood Good Morning! How did you sleep? I slept well!
scareykatt @buckhollywood sleep good, but I must end a life for once and for all. I can't let it continue to control my life. I have to kill it TODAY!
6:21 AM - A wonderful ideal came to me. What if I call my long time friends in Dallas. Kevin and Gary will give me great advice on how to deal my situation. Besides, they ALWAYS look out for me. Hopefully, Gary will be at work too. I think Gary have an email. Kevin told me that Gary has one.
I can't call right now. They may not be at work. They are two hours ahead of me. The time is 6:27 and it's 8:27 in Dallas. Maybe, call them about two hours from now.
6:59 AM - I read Josh's new post about Chelsea and Chuy on Prop. 8. I left him a quick message.
I have never ever vote in my life.
This will be my FIRST TIME to vote.
There are two main things to vote.
1) a new president.
2) no on prop 8.
Those two things are the MOST important for me.
5:54 PM - Email saying the video is on VH.
7 PM - Leftover pasta
8:25 PM - I signed up for Instant Action, a game site. I played Think Tank. It is my first time to play the game. Love that game.
I found another game I love. Marvel Blast is an awesome game!
Zap is another great game.
Oh, man! Instant Action have a new player now.
9:31 PM - Miguel called me. He didn't get his job back. No surprise there! I knew he will lose it. Now, he want to meet a guy at the bathhouse. Oh, boy!
9:41 PM - Miguel called again! He wished me luck and want a good boyfriend. He wants "someone to love the way he is." Man, with that kind of love, Miguel will fuck up again. He doesn't want help with his alcohol problem.
10 PM - Fox 11 news.
10:10 PM - Something crossed my mind. I wondered if Miguel ever get his papers from his locker at work. He took his important papers to Marriot over a week ago. He didn't want to leave them at his hotel room in Hollywood. Maybe, he forgot about it.
Miguel went through a lot today. He doesn't have a job. He doesn't have any place to go. Last Saturday, he lost his clothes. He have nothing, nothing at all. Don't get me wrong. Miguel is a sweet guy, but alcohol is his life. There's nothing else I could do. He mentioned he want someone to love him the way he is. Sadly, Miguel will NEVER EVER be happy that way. He will sunk into alcoholism even more.
10:25 PM - Brush my teeth.
10:54 PM - a tweet from toddly00
Toddly00 i have made my decision. . . .and i have yet to regret it.
11 PM - The Simpsons.
I laid on the bed.
11:30 PM - Bed time.