16 January 2008, Wednesday

8:30 AM - I woke up. I played spades on the blackberry.

9 AM - I took a shower. I played spades again. I lost two games. Drats!

10:40 AM - Miguel woke up. He said, “You didn’t wake me up.” I got up from bed . I turned on the computer. I started today’s journal entry. Miguel used the restroom.

11 AM - We got dressed, not from having hot passionate sex. LOL. We went to the bus stop for bus 2. We got off on Vermont/Sunset. We went to the bank. I put some money in the account. We walked to the subway. We took the subway to Universal City. We took bus 150 to Marshalls. We looked at some rugs. We like one a lot. It will look good in the bathroom. We were this close of getting it. We put it back. We didn’t know what size of rug we get for the bathroom. We only brought caps. Miguel also brought a Marshalls bag too. We went outside.

We used the restroom upstairs. We checked out a Sushi restaurant. EIW! It look awful. I just don’t like sushi at all. We will eat somewhere else. We went downstairs to the parking lot. I took some pics of Marshalls. We walked down the street. We jaywalked across the street; Miguel didn’t want to walk in the sun. We walked to Vineland for bus 156. I thought we will take the bus to the subway. Miguel explained 156 goes to Highland/Santa Monica. The subway will take longer.

Miguel went to the gas station for a quick snack. The bus was coming. He didn’t have time to get the snack. We got on the bus. It was now 2 PM. We were both hungry; we didn’t eat breakfast. We got off on Highland. We waited for the bus. We noticed the rapid bus stopped at the old stop. That was odd. Boy, howdy! The bus sign was not there. They moved the sign back to the old stop. We walked across the street. Miguel went to get a roll of quarters and two scratch offs. We both lost! We waited about twenty minutes for the bus. We should have walk to Target!

We got off the bus. Eat now or wait. We changed our minds about McDonald’s and Carl's Jr. We decided to eat pizza at Target. We shopped around. We got some valentine M&M’s. I looked at TV shows. Miguel was more interest in the movies. I wasn’t planning of getting some movies. I got The George Lopez Show, The Karate Kid Collection and Spiderman. He grabbed The Silence Of The Lambs, Breakfast At Tiffany’s and Sleepless In Seattle.

We looked at some rugs for the kitchen. The one I like was still there. I put it in the cart. Miguel looked at some underwear. He put them in the cart. He looked at some black socks. He put them in the cart. We decided to put some movies back. We can get them the next time. He looked for some face wipes. He couldn’t find his brand. He got a different kind. Then, we paid for the stuff.

It was time to eat at Pizza Hut Express. I picked out a pepperoni pizza. I get us a table. He came with the food. He got himself a hot dog. I got us Dr. Pepper to drink. We ate our food. Couple of times, he stole my pizza from my hand. He loves the crush part. Me too! He went to the restroom. He came back to the table. I was about to go, but I can wait. I put some plastic bags on the rug - top and bottom, not the homosexual kind. LOL. We left Target. We went down the escalator. Miguel heard the bus. We ran to the bus 4. We caught the bus on time. We sat in the middle of the bus from each other. We got to Vermont. We moved to the front of the bus by the side door. We got off the bus on Rosemount. Miguel brought the newspaper and two Cella's Milk Chocolate Covered Cherries. He ate his right away. I waited till home to eat mine. It was good. We finally got home at 5 PM.

I watched some videos on YouTube. I checked my email from J&R. It is very disappointing. This is the email.

Dear Kazz Falcon

Due to difficulties we are having trying to verify information with the bank that issued the credit card on this order, we need you to fax/email a photo ID (drivers license, passport or student ID etc") we need a main work number & business name where you can be contacted to verify your order. This will allow us to continue processing your order.

Our fax number is 718.507.3150, and business hours are 9:00 am to 6:00 pm EST.

For further information please contact our Credit Department at 800-292-2635 or 718-340-0397.

That really sucks big time. I was looking forward to get the HP 750GB Personal Media Drive. I don’t know why they had a hard time with my credit card. I used it today at Target and Marshalls. The credit card is good enough. Yesterday, I looked at my account. The pending amount was gone. It was there for a few days. I think I let Brian to order it for me again. I don’t think I will send them my photo ID at all. I order from Amazon too. I have never had any problems with Amazon at all.

Miguel put down the new rug. It looked fabulous. We were quite pleased with the rug. It goes nicely with the couch in the kitchen. Miguel put some foil on the window and the door. No one can look through the window.


Of all sickening things Miguel did in the past, he drown my bunny in the bleach water over an hour! Damn him! How could he do such a nasty thing? That was so mean of him! Really, the bunny have never been wash before. He just hung by the front door’s window. He washed it quite good. The bunny smelt so wonderful. Miguel hung the bunny from a clothe hanger to his death! Hey! That reminds me of Jesus Christ! LOL

8 PM - Miguel fixed some sandwichs for supper. We also had fruit from a can. We watched American Idol again. Miguel read the newspaper. We watched TV till bed time. We went to bed about 1:45 AM during Will & Grace. Good night.

15 January 2008, Tuesday

9 AM - I woke up. I played Spider Solitaire for a little while.

9:30 AM - I got dressed. I watched some videos on YouTube.

10 AM - I watched The View. Miguel woke up soon after.

10:30 AM - Miguel asked, “What do you want for breakfast?” I said, “Scrambled eggs.” He got the eggs and the milk from the icebox. He opened the first egg in a bowl. He got excited about something. He called me over there. He was happy that the cracked egg had TWO yolks. They was attached to each other. I videotaped and took some pictures. I have never saw an egg with two yolks. I went back to the computer. I put the pics on the computer. Miguel made some hot cocoa for me. He cooked the scrambled eggs. He brought the cooked eggs over to me. I ate my breakfast.

11:30 AM - Miguel decided to wash the curtains from the walls. I told him that no one wash the curtains. He claimed everyone does it, even the dry cleaners! Yeah, right! He used to work at the dry cleaners in the 1980’s. He knows what he is doing! He took down the curtains. I washed the curtains and the bathroom rugs.

12:30 PM - There was a community meeting at the apartment building. I hardly go to the meetings. They are boring as hell. I don’t bother with them. I was there for a while, then I excused myself to check on the laundry. The curtains was done. I gave them to Miguel. I went back to the laundry room. I put the beach towel in the dryer. I went to the meeting again. It was done at 1 PM.

The Afternoon - Miguel took it upon to make new curtain out of my green curtains! Hello! What the hell! He didn’t ask for permission. He only response was TRUST ME!

He cut my green curtain in half. Say what! The nerve of him! He want to make a curtain for the small kitchen window. Truthfully, he did quite good with both windows. It took him all afternoon, plus my help. He measured the windows and the curtain. He fold the curtain, put some pins at the ends, and cut it in half on the iron board. He sewed the ends for the string. He put the curtain on the windows. They looked God awful terrible absolutely fabulous!

Miguel cleaned the bathroom floor and the kitchen floor too. Tomorrow, we would see a rug for the kitchen floor. I want a good size rug to cover up most of the floor by the sink.

We had the leftovers for supper tonight. I had the last hamburger helper. He had the Fettuccine Alfredo and the chicken leg. I had the crab meat too.

8 PM - We watched the seventh season premiere of American Idol. They are off to a good start. Once again, some of them were quite bad. They don’t take their chance serious. I went on Stickam during the show. Stacey was in her room. There was few others I didn‘t know. Most of the time, Stacey chatted with LordLargo37. They showed each other their desks. I didn’t thou. I used my laptop at that time. Probably, the next time. Hmmm, or make a video and put it on YouTube. I finished off the hamburger helper. It was getting late for Stacey; she signed off. Her time was 1 AM.

14 January 2008, Monday

8:30 AM - I woke up. I played Spider Solitaire for a little while.

9 AM - I watched some videos on YouTube. I had two bagels and milk for breakfast.

10 AM - I watched The View.

10:45 AM - Miguel finally woke up. He asked, “Do you want some breakfast?” I said, “I had breakfast.” Miguel washed the dishes, then his face in the bathroom.

1:51 PM - I txt Peter; “Do you remember what month I got the prepaid phone??? I can’t recall. I may have two months left.”

2:35 PM - Miguel and I went to Food4Less with the small cart on the bus 2. Peter called me on Sunset Blvd. He thought I have till July 2008. I can check the last month on the phone. I told him I am using the blackberry again. Txt on the prepaid phone is hard to do. I like the blackberry for txt. Pete offered to pay for my prepaid phone. Right now, he don’t have the money. Peter asked, “is Today of all days was special?” I couldn’t think of anything special or big. He revealed to me that Today was his ninth anniversary with Brian! Wow! Nine years is a long time. Peter turned on the speakerphone. I congrats them both. I told Miguel about their good news. Peter hung up on me.

We arrived at Food4Less. We made a killing on the meat. Most of it was on sale! It was a good thing we went. We didn’t have that much meat left in the freezer. We brought Pork Chops, Beef Ribs and ground beef. Also, Malt O Meal, Bologna, Crab Meat and Hot Cocoa. We did great on the groceries. It cost $63.50. We went outside. Miguel checked the receipt. Everything was clear.

We waited for the bus. Miguel tried to pull a fast one on me. He claimed the I didn’t get the exact change from the cashier. We counted the money again. Yeah, we was right on the money. The bus came. We didn’t get on the FULL bus. We decided to take to subway to Santa Monica. We went across the street. Two more buses were coming down Sunset Blvd. Nah, forget about it. The subway was best for us.

Miguel said he was hungry. He didn’t ate all day. We walked to the subway. We waited over thirty minutes. The subway ran late. For some reason, the subway came on the wrong rail. Dear Lord! Every cart on the train was so pack. The subway moved along. This time, another subway came on the right track. Once again, it was going the other way to North Hollywood. Our subway finally came. We got on the first cart. We stood up.

We got off at Santa Monica. We took an escalator upstairs. Lots of people came down for the subway. Hmmm, bus 4 was already here. We made it to street. We were late to get that same bus. It left. Another bus 4 came within a minute. We sat in the middle on the bus. This guy mentioned that the side doors doesn’t work. We moved to the back. We got off the bus. Miguel stopped by 7/11 for a quick snack. I waited for him by the street. He came out with a cupcake. He tried to give me one. I can’t eat it. My teeth! We got home by 5:35 PM.

I ate my cupcake! Hostess made delicious cupcakes. Miguel packed the meat in the plastic bags. I watched some videos for a while. I put up the meat in the freezer. He cooked hamburger helper. We ate during Wheel Of Fortune, the game show Miguel ALWAYS lose! I made some Kool Aid. We watched more TV.

13 January 2008, Sunday

8:30 AM - I woke up and stayed in bed till 9. I didn’t want to get up. I played Spider Solitaire on the blackberry.

9 AM - I got dressed. I looked for $2 for the newspaper. Miguel need the classifieds to find a job. I kinda woke him up. He asked “where are you going?” I said, “Sunday’s paper.”

I walked down to 7/11. The weather is so nice today. I went home. I opened the door. Miguel fixed his bed. I gave him the paper. He told me to put it on the table. I did. We watched some TV. The weather girl was on; today’s high is 80. He fell back asleep.

11:45 AM - Miguel woke up again. He fixed himself some cereal. He wanted to get some hamburger meat at the nearest store. We got into a little fight. He took off the stretch from the cart. He took what I said wrong - I used all fours; for the last time, I used them to bring the new trash can home from Target. Miguel changed his mind; he doesn’t want to get the meat from Food4Less or anywhere else.

I got upset. I pushed Miguel around. Miguel shouted, “Don’t push me.” I didn’t listen to him. I continued to push him to the ground. My anger took over. I hold him to the ground and continued to punch him till I am in complete control. He stopped screaming. He promised that he wouldn’t get on my nerves.

We stayed home. We watched the next four episodes of Survivor: Borneo. We have no ideal who was leaving. We can’t recall at all. Like NBC’s ad, “If you haven’t seen it, it’s new to you!” Yeah! That’s okay. We are enjoying the show the second time around too.

We watched regular TV. We saw the last part of I Love Lucy. We watched the news. Miguel fell asleep again.

After 7 PM - I took a shower. Miguel used the restroom, then he fixed a salad for us. We watched more TV.

12 January 2008, Saturday

8:30 AM - I woke up. I turned on the computer. I looked at some videos on YouTube. I noticed I am #1 on two lists. This is my first time to be #1 on TWO LISTS! The video is This Car Is Awesome!

#1 - Most Discussed (Today) - Autos & Vehicles - UK

#1 - Top Rated (Today) - Autos & Vehicles - UK

I just made a video about that! Yes, folks! Hey, it was a milestone for me on YouTube!

this car is awesome

I looked at HP 750GB Personal Media Drive. I still want to get that. I called Brian on his cell phone. There was no answer. He must be in bed. I ordered the drive, but I didn’t push submit yet. I want Brian’s feedback before I do. I called Brian again. Brian was at work. He thought it is great for me. He wanted to product code. I txt him the code. I am waiting to hear back from him. Miguel woke up after 10:15 AM. Miguel cleaned the restroom.

11:30 AM - We watched Three’s Company. I always love that show since I was a lad. We watched the whole season; there were six episodes. Miguel fell asleep during the last one. I watched more videos.

I tried to find the mouse hole in the bathroom. I removed the containers from the storage area. There was no mouse hole at all. Miguel cleaned the kitchen. He cleaned under the sink too. There was a hole. He figured the mouse could have come from that hole. He set the glue trap by the hole.

After 3 PM - Brian finally called me back. He said that HP 750GB Personal Media Drive is the big one. I told him that HP wanted $303.09. He mentioned that I should go to Shopzilla for a cheaper price. J&R have them for $239.99. That is a great price for me. I ordered it from J&R. I saved about $40. I don’t think I will order from the main site any more. Most times, the main site will sell their stuff at the regular price.

I explained to Brian that I have over 14 Scandisk Memory Sticks; that is way too many! The Media Drive is perfect for me. I will only put my videos on the drive. I will use the scandisk for my pictures and music.

Miguel cooked some chicken legs and pork chops. He thought the pork chops was chicken. Oops, his mistake. He didn’t check it quite well. He fixed a salad too. Like always, the supper was delicious. We watched Good Times, The First Season on DVD.

Miguel washed the dishes. Most times, he does it. I don’t complain at all. He is very helpful around the apartment. He basically do everything. He put the chicken legs in the plastic bag. I made some room for him. I put up the chicken in the freezer.

That was our day. We supposed to look at some rugs at Marshalls. We didn’t want to. It was past 1 PM. We just stayed home for the day.

11 January 2008, Friday

9 AM - I woke up. I used the restroom. I turned on the TV for I Love Lucy. I went online. Miguel soon woke up. He mentioned the mouse wasn’t caught. Maybe, it wasn’t a mouse. He cooked some eggs. He ate some cereal.

In the afternoon, we watched the first four episodes of Survivor: Borneo. We haven’t watch that season since the summer of 2000.

5 PM - We got dressed again, Miguel want to use the small cart for the milk and the water. Instead, I convinced him that we should go to Vons. I know we will buy more food. We walked to Vons. Miguel carried the cart with him. We got the water first, then shopped for the food.

Two times, Miguel stole someone’s cart for their food. I can’t believe it at all. He reminded of Carrie in that Thanksgiving episode of King Of Queens. Carrie asked this lady what foods she cook for thanksgiving. The lady refused because Carrie took her parking spot earlier. Carrie followed her around the store and get the same food. She missed something from the shelf. The lady was busy looking at a food, then Carrie stole her cart. That episode was pretty funny. We saw it yesterday.

Miguel checked the receipt outside. Something wasn’t right about the wieners. He took them back in Vons. I waited at the table. Miguel came back with some change. Those hot dogs wasn’t on sale. He got over $5 back. We were on the way home.

I mentioned we still need to get his clothes from the dry cleaners. We don’t know what time it was. I looked on the receipt at the corner. We had 15 minutes left. They close at 7 PM. We split up. I stayed on my side; Miguel crossed the street. We met up later at the corner. It took him a while. He left a shirt behind. They missed some spots on the shirt; he won’t have to pay for it.

We went home. I put up the food. Miguel cooked some pasta. We watched Keeping Up Appearances. We watched more TV shows. I went online and do today’s diary entry, then it is off to bed. That was our day.

Good night!

10 January 2008, Thursday

This morning, we washed three loads of clothes. The lady I saw on the bus with Ken finished a load. She put it in the dryer. I put the clothes in the washing machine. I was done by 2:30 PM. Miguel folded the clothes. Miguel bake a yellow cake.

After 3:30 PM - We got dressed. We walked to the bus stop. We got on bus 4 to .99¢ only store, near Sunset and Santa Monica. We brought some food and stuff for the kitchen. It was $37.37. Miguel gave me $15. I gave him back $5. We were there about an hour or two. We didn’t catch bus 2; it was too crowded. We caught bus 4. We stood on the bus. We got off the bus.

We went home. Miguel cooked supper like always. It was a very short day for us.

11:30 PM - Apparently, we may have another mouse. We kept on hearing noises over a month. Tonight, we heard a macaroni fell to the ground. Miguel checked for the mouse. There was no sign of the mouse. Miguel almost gave up. I got on my knees, not for that, guys! LOL. I found it on the ground. I showed it to him, not that again, guys! We removed the pasta and put it on the counter. Miguel found a open bag of macaroni. I thought we have another mouse in the place.

When Miguel took a shower earlier tonight, I heard the noises from the same spot. I gave Miguel the glue traps. He put one by the open macaroni bag and the other one by the door inside the bathroom. Now, the waiting game begun.

9 January 2008, Wednesday

For some reason, I always woke up after 7 AM. I am not a morning person at all. I would rather stay in bed about 9.

This is my morning routine. I wake up after 7. I turned on to watch the news for a little while, then watch some videos on YouTube. Miguel will cook some eggs for us. Sometimes, he had some cereal.

I jumped back in bed. I played Spider Solitaire on the Blackberry. Miguel woke up about 10. We missed I Love Lucy at 9. We always watch that show at 9 and Noon, two full hours. Miguel cooked some eggs. He had some cereal.

11 AM - We watched the news, then Lucy at Noon and a part of Perry Mason; someone shot a police officer aka breaking news..

1 PM - We watched Days Of Our Lives on NBC. Marlena went gun happy on Stephano and Rolf. They got a warning shot from her. As she about to leave, she felt John’s presence, but he was hiding. Earlier, Stephano told John that he can’t go out; he is a wanted man. Truthfully, John died last October and Marlena thought Stephano killed him. Really, it was a hit and run accident. Everyone thought he was dead for good. In turn, Stephano brought John back to life again.

2 PM - We got dressed up. We took Miguel’s clothes to the dry cleaners,. We missed the first 704. The cars kept on turning left; we wasn’t able to catch the bus. We waited for the bus. Suddenly, Miguel went back to the dry cleaners to check on something. Two 704 came and went. Miguel noticed we missed those buses. Bus 4 was already there. We caught bus 4 instead.

We got off the bus on La Brea. We got a roll of quarters for the laundry. Then, we went to Target. Miguel looked at some lotion over THIRTY minutes as I played Spider Solitaire. We got more stuff. We looked at some DVDs. Wonder Woman was on sale for $14.99. I wanted to get it. I have the first two seasons. I won’t buy it today. We looked at some shoes for me. Miguel think I need new shoes. There was no shoes for my size. We checked out. I paid the stuff with the ATM card. Miguel gave me $30 for his share.

We saw Bus 4. We ran down the stairs to catch it. No way in hell. He was about to leave. We caught 704 to Silverlake. Miguel checked out AA Meetings around the corner. They start at 7 AM. A bus was coming. Miguel ran back to me. We caught bus 4. We got off at 7/11. We got some thai tea. I always love thai tea so much. We went home.

We ate the leftovers from last night. I finished off the shrimp fried rice. He had the soup.

8 January 2008, Tuesday

Miguel told me to put my teeth in. I said, "No" Once again, Miguel got upset with me. I still refused. I don't know why Miguel is upset.

HELLO! My teeth is already in my mouth. I was playing with him. He wasn't too pleased.

We didn't have any breakfast. He wanted me to go with him to pick up his check and go to the barber shop . I didn't want to. I have plans for the day; I need to pick up my own check, cash it at the bank and pay the water/power bill.

I gave him the cell phone outside our apartment. I won’t need it at all. He would probably be out all day. We went straight to the bus stop. I offered to give him $10 for "giving me some shade from the sun." He took the money. We waited for 704. We got on the bus.

We traveled on Santa Monica Blvd. The bus was getting full at each main stop. Miguel wanted to give me back the cell phone. I have no need for it. I will call him when I get home. I would be gone for a couple of hours. He mentioned he will get off on La Cienega. He could have get off with me at San Vicente to catch 105. He figured he can’t catch 705 at the post office. Instead, he got off at La Cienega. Miguel crossed the street as the bus took off. I waved at him.

I got off at La Cienega. I went to the post office. I looked through my mail. I throw up the junk mail. I waited for the bus. I got on 704. Then, I got off at Fairfax and caught the rapid bus to Vine. I walked to the water/power building. I paid my bill. I walked down to the bank on Sunset and Vine. I put my money in the account. I caught the bus. A neighbor, Ken, sat in the back on the same bus with his lady friend. They got off at Rosemount. I didn’t want to get off with them. I got off on Alvarado. I brought some eggs at the local market. I was home few minutes before Noon.

I ate a peanut butter sandwich and some cheetos for lunch. I was so hungry. I reinstalled the webcam on the computer again. The webcam works just fine.

I called Miguel over three times. The no good son of a mother fucker cunt did NOT answer my calls! Miguel FINALLY returned my call at 5:47 PM. Damn him!

He was very hungry; he didn’t eat all day. He wanted to grab something from Subway. I showed up at Lucy’s Laundry Mart. I noticed he had a new bag with him. I thought the bag belongs to someone else. It was his new clothes.

I persuaded him to get some Chinese food for supper. We walked to the restaurant and ordered the food for home. I got extra shrimp for my shrimp fried rice. He got combo dinner plate, which is chowmein noodles, beef and broccoli and orange chicken. He brought himself a soup too. He went ahead to 7/11 without me for some milk and Dr. Pepper. Our order was done. I waited for him outside of 7/11. We went home and ate the food. It was tasty.

We watched some TV. Miguel modeled his new clothes. He looked great in the clothes. He is quite pleased with them. He even looked great with his new hairdo too. He got a haircut this afternoon.

That was our day, separately! We accomplished what we set out to do.

First Entry

I decided to do a new blog.

I haven't done one in a couple of years.

This is my new blog.

That name fits me just fagulous.

I am the world's worst writer!

ROFL

God DOES Exist

Frustrated

7 of 7 Posted 11:41 PM Msg 34414.7 reply to 34414.1

From Alien (kattalien)To: Josh24AB unread

God DOES Exist

Please! I really doubt it.

If God does exist, how come homosexuals can't go to heaven?

after all, God made homosexuals in HIS IMAGE too.

God is a damn hypocrite!

In closing, I want no part of that hypocrite God since I am gay.

As far I am concerned, there is no God.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!

Happy - Lorenna McKennit

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!

Birthday Riddle

Happy

Yesterday evening, a riddle came to me.........I think u will get it.

If someone born on Thanxgiving day, how many birthdays are there?

In their lifetime, they will be TWICE older then they "normally" are.

The birthday and thanxgiving are the SAME date......let's say Nov 24, 2005, Thursday. I was born on thanxgiving.

Next year, thanksgiving is 23, Thursday..........but my birthday is 24, Friday.

I will have TWO birthdays on Thursday AND Friday.

The two birthdays wil make me TWICE older than I "normally" am.

I will be 37 and 38 in ONE MONTH time!

ROFL

In reality, I was born on a Monday in 1969. Therefore, there is no way possible I can have TWO birthdays in November!

Newbie Atheist

Frustrated

Do we have a newbie atheist here? Not saying that in a pissy manner, I was there once too. We all were. I'm just asking.

Let's say the contradicts in the bible and God are changing my beliefs.

There are so many of them.

Yet, I can't go on believing the bible and God with full of contradicts.

Now, I see the bible is one big headache!

It isn't worth reading the bible or believing in God.

It dawned on me that I felt like that for a longest time.

I hardly go to church any more.

There is nothing there for me.

11/23/05 Wed

Happy

7:30 AM - Taylor woke up. He got ready and left to see about a job; he will take care of a old lady. That is something Taylor really need. The place he is living at now, the man is a major creep to him. Taylor really need to get away from the phycho!

Taylor mentioned he will come back later on today. Since Monday, Taylor have been staying with me. We need each other during this time; Robert passed away last Thursday.

I hardly do anything today, except the usual things I do.

Another old friend, Mike, called me from his work in the evening time. We talked eariler this morning for a split second. He was going back to bed. I mentioned a friend died from cancer. Mike mentioned he was sorry.

We chatted for a while. Mike don't look forward to thanxgiving/Holidays. Today was the anniversary of Mike's ex lover's death. He died few years ago. It was still hard on him. They have been together for a long time.

I mentioned tomorrow is my birthday. Mike joked that I was a old queen. He brought up the Xmas parade. It is this Sunday. I didn't know that. The parade was the last Sunday after Thanxgiving. We hunged up the phone.

Later, Taylor finally called. He won't be coming home tonight. He was babysitting.

Last night, Taylor found the Loreena McKennitt tape. I was quite surprised. I remembered that Robert gave me the tape few years ago. Now, I have SOMETHING to remember Robert. Taylor and I listened to the tape.

I looked up my web sites. I wrote about it on the web. I hit the jackpot.

Loreena McKennitt

Loreena McKennitt is my new favorite singer, right along with Enya! Oct 24, 2002, Thursday, I found Loreena on Musicmatch player while listening to Enya. Her song came on and her voice was beautiful beholding with my ears!

A very funny thing happened thou, my friend came over and I wanted him to hear the beautiful Loreena song. I was so shock to learn that Robert already knew her songs. He mentioned he listened to her over 6 years now and already had some CDs of hers. He offered that I could listen to his CDs. I can't wait! :-P

Robert

Sad

This is one of the most difficult things I ever written.

November 21, 2005, Monday - I recently learned that a close friend died from cancer. Taylor and I didn't know he passed away. It hit Taylor very hard; he still loves Robert.

I heard someone threw pennies at my door. I knew it was Taylor to get my attention. I went outside to let him in. The moment I saw him, I mentioned Robert told me to tell him to call him.

I saw Robert one last time on Halloween at APLA. I just got my monthly bus pass. I walked down the hallway. Someone called out my name. I looked up. I didn't recognize him at all. It was a huge shock to see Robert that way. I didn't expect to see him. Robert was in a wheelchair. He was in bad shape. He revealed his baldhead; he under went chemotherapy this past few months. At first, I didn't want anything to do with him. I couldn't face him like that way; I think Robert sense that. It was all over my face. It was hard to talk and face him. I haven't seen him over a year. He was walking, good looking, and muscular. He wasn't that way any more.

We chatted for a while. He wanted my phone number and email again. He mentioned he would call me soon; I will do the same. We never call each other on the phone or an email. Now, I wished I had or sent an email. I will have told him that I haven't see Taylor yet. I will have go over there with Taylor to see him. Then, I waited for him in the lobby, playing Dig Dug. I was such a mess. I felt bad about my old friend. Robert came to the lobby. We exchanged phone numbers/email. He thought I didn't have the same phone number/email.

We chatted more. He asked about Taylor. I haven't seen him in a few months. That's Taylor for you. He doesn’t keep in contact with me every week. Taylor couldn't get in touch; he lived with a fellow he took care of this year. It took up most of Taylor's time. Robert asked for a big favor - tell Taylor to call him. I was surprised to hear that. They haven't talk to each other in a long time. Now that I think about it - Robert wanted to talk to him one last time; he knew his time was ending soon. It didn't occur to me at that time.

Out of the blue, Robert brought up the $200. I was quite surprised he remembered. I gave him that money over two years ago. He mentioned he would pay me back soon. At first, I didn't want the money back. He doesn’t have to pay me. He needs his money more than I do. I can't go ahead and take the money back from him. It didn't felt right.

Robert mentioned that a nurse lived with him; that made me quite happy. At least, he had someone to look after him. Forget about Sean. They weren't on speaking terms any more. Sean started a rumor; Robert shoots up every day. Thus ending the friendship between them. I didn't know that Sean could be so mean and cruel. I only saw the good side of him. Robert took him in few years ago; Sean has no place to live. Out of the kindness of Robert's heart, Sean moved in with him. Robert mentioned that he would move to a two-bedroom apartment in Silverlake with his nurse. That made my day. Robert will be closer to me; I lived in Silverlake too. I can go there any time. I can help out once in a while.

From what I saw, Robert enjoyed being in the wheelchair; he had lots of fun. He mentioned that he would run them over if they don't get out of the way. LOL. We went to the subway. I offered to go with him to pick up his medication; he declined - he just wanted time alone. He doesn't get out that often. I wondered how he leaves the apartment. The building does have steps. He told me that friends would help him out of the building. I left him on the train; I got off Santa Monica. That was the last time I saw him.

Taylor finally called Robert. A lady answered the phone; Julie didn't know who Taylor was. Taylor explained that he met her with Robert at the gay center; they picked up his medication. One time, Taylor told me that; Taylor thought Julie was his niece. Well, Robert told me that she was his nurse! LOL. She sounded strange on the phone; Taylor asked, "What's wrong?" Julie revealed that Robert passed away last Thursday, one week before my birthday on Thanksgiving. Taylor broke down, crying. We couldn't believe that Robert died. They continued talking on the phone.

Taylor wanted to come over to Robert's place. Julie thought it was a great ideal. Taylor needed some kind of closure. I offered to go with him. After all, I need closure too and Robert's place was a good place to start the healing and talking with Julie.

Robert and I basically came from the same background - we both have alcoholics for exes and we became homeless because of them. Neither Sean nor Miguel will stop drinking alcohol; some people don’t want any help whatsoever. We met at Path and became very close. Robert helped me a great deal about the dreadful ex. He was a good friend. He was there for me. We can relate to each other.

I got my own place at Waterloo in September 2002. Robert and Taylor helped me move from Miguel's place on Cherokee. Miguel was upset that I was leaving him for my own place. He promised he never want to see me again! Good riddance. I didn't have my own bed. Robert gave me his old bed, which was good enough at that time. I have no money for a new bed. Robert and Taylor took me shopping for things at my place. Taylor picked out the things for my liking. Taylor made me place very nicely; he did an excellent job. They both will do anything for me.

I know I went off topic! Hey, I just want to tell how good Robert AND Taylor were friends. Their friendship meant the world to me.

Taylor and I went to the bus stop. He was still crying; he couldn't understand how God took him away. He was pretty upset. He disavowed God; he wants nothing to do with God. He took off his rings and necklace. I put out my hand, "Give me your stuff." I didn't want Taylor to give up on hope and/or God. I will keep his things for safekeeping. He gave up his faith in God. He couldn't handle losing more loved ones.

We got off Madison and walked to Robert's. Taylor buzzed. Julie came down. We went in the building. Taylor broke down. Julie comforts him. We went up the stairs. We entered the apartment. They mostly did the talking. I listened to them! LOL. It was a great healing process for the both of them. It felt good to be a part of that. I just wanted to be there for Taylor. He has been through a lot.

Taylor admitted to Julie that he wants nothing to do with God; God kept on taking his loved ones. Julie made a excellent point - people comes into our lives for a reason, then they will leave wherever they may go to. Robert did his work on earth; he touched so many lives. It was his time to go home. God needed Robert more than we do. Taylor decided to put on his jewelry again.

Julie mentioned that Robert and her were complete strangers when they met! No kidding, dude! After three days, Robert offered Julie to live with him. See how good Robert was. Julie didn't know what to think. She has nothing to lose. She moved in to take care of him. They became great friends.

In closing, I felt so bad. I didn't reach Taylor on time before Robert's passing. I promised Robert that I would tell Taylor to call him. We both didn't say our goodbyes one last time in person. Whenever I listen to Loreena McKennitt, her songs will remind me of the great friend we lost. My friends, we will cherish our time with him till we see him again.

"Every journey brings its own surprises: a challenge, a sudden detour, a new set of friends along the way, perhaps even a destination different from the one you intended." - Loreena McKennitt.

DVD TV Shows

Happy

This morning, Mike Crouch called me; he wanted to come over in the morning. I mentioned I had plans. I returned the first season of The Brady Bunch. The pastic part of the DVD was up at the side twice.

I took 304 to Target. I went straight to the DVD area. Thank goodness that there was some first season there! I went to the cashier; she told me to go to Customer Service. I got in line; I exchanged it. I waited for the bus.

I put a check in the bank. Yesterday, I overspent on the DVDs again! Man, it is a addiction to me. I just couldn't stop myself at Best Buy AND Target.

I brought 7 DVDs at BB and Brady Bunch's first four seasons at Target. I thought I would only get three with the BB coupon. Boy, howdy!

Thank Goodness, I had more money in the bank. I don't want to go in debt! LOL

I figured I get the bread at Jons, across the street from the banks. I walked by the clothing store and the coats caught my attention. I needed a new coat. I only had my leather one, not counting the long leather coat.

I checked out the coats. I found two I like. I went to the cashier's. I was satisfied with the price. $9.99 and $19.99, not bad for two coats!

I took the rapid to Santa Monica and went home. The apartment manger was "housecleaning" the complex.

I was extremely hot. I wanted to relax for a while and watched some shows on DVD.

30 minutes later, the manager knocked on my door, "Someone was here." It was his last time to tell me. Man, it was Mike! He shouldn't be here right now. We agreed on 1 PM. The time was about 11:30 PM. I let Mike in, I mentioned 1 PM. He was anxious to come over. The manager blurted out, "Why am I cleaning?" It does felt like SUMMER! It was 84.

Mike and I went in. Mike checked his email; I watched Sanford & Son. Mike still gets on my freaking nerves with his talking. I couldn't watch my show as he talked. I should have slap the hell out of him! LOL

SHUT THE HELL UP, MIKE!

I finished watching some Sanford & Son episodes. I made some white cupcakes.

Later in the afternoon, Mike was hungry. I signed off to let him in the complex. Mike came back with some Tuna. He said, "You didn't hear me." Hello, Mike, the phone didn't ring once! We watched Urban Cowboy for the upteenth time! Mike asked, "When was the last time I saw that movie?" I replied, "With you." He watched the movie and doing the email at the same time. I laid on the couch.

It was getting late for Mike. He mentioned he want to spend the night, but never do! He left at the very end of the movie.

Suicide

Anxious

what do you think about suicide?

Suicide isn't something I will do.

I will get a HIT MAN to kill me.

The hit man knows no fear!

He will get the job done right then and there.

I don't believe in suicide.

I'm being honest with my feelings.

The hit man is the next best thing!

Bring on the hit man!

Outfest

Happy

I took a shower. I was planning of going to pick up my mail. I know I have lots of mail. I wasn't there over a week.

Brian called me for a BIG FAVOR - volunteer at Outfest; Peter was sick. So, I took Peter's place.

I met Brian at McDonald's on Wilshire. We walked over to Outfest. They put us straight to work. We made name tags and cut the tickets.

Molly asked me if I want to volunteer this weekend at Fusion. I have no ideal what she was talking about it. They gave me a pamplet. It looked interesting. I signed up for the weekend. Molly mentioned she will send the hours in a email.

They brought us lunch at TOGO. We ate at Outfest.

We met this black women; she chatted a lot! lol

We talked how we became to be. Brian and I came from a baptist background. Enough said!

She had few boyfriends before, but it didn't feel right. She had a lesbian collage roomie. She didn't know that roomie was gay; she hide it from her and so forth.

She continued on with her life story. It was very interesting. She should write a book! After all, she is a writer like me!

Brian and I went to the bank on Wilshire/Western. Peter called Brian to have supper. Nah, I was too tired to eeat out with them. We parted ways. Brian went to Taco Bell to wait for Peter. I went home.

I felt like I was part of the WORKING world. It felt so good. I haven't work for the longest time.

I checked my email for the hours.

Kazz

Thanks so much for your expressed interest in Fusion! I can assure you that it is going to be a total blast!

You are currently signed up for:

Friday at the Egyptian Theater
6:00pm-8:00pm
Drink Ticket Bander

Saturday at the Barnsdall Art Park
11pm-1:00am
Barnsdall Load Out

Sunday at the JACCC
12:30-4:30pm
Usher

Remember we are asking that you wear your Outfest Volunteer shirt (or solid black shirt) with either black pants or jeans.

Please report to me when you get to the location(s). I will give you your badge on your first shift.

Looking forward to seeing you!

Molly

AOL Sucks

Sad

The morning before, AOL deleted my web site. They didn't give me a reason yet.

AOL sent me TWO emails, but it really didn't EXPLAIN anything about the site.

It was mostly about tips and TOS!

I woke up in the morning. I noticed I wasn't online. I wondered why.

I tried to sign on. For some reason, I need to do the question to sign in. I put in the answer.

So far, everything seems all right.

I wanted to retouch my web site.

I was shocked that my web site wasn't there.

I didn't have anything wrong with it. I worked on the site over the weekend.

I know I didn't delete it.

I checked the other sites. Boy, there was gone too.

:-(

I was sad. I had the web site over three years.

I hated to start all over again and again!

It took lots of time to build one.

I had them where I loved them!

Now, I won't do any more web sites on AOL with the screen name I have at this moment.

It is a waste of time.

I was glad that I start to put on all my art on Blogger! It was a good thing I did!

AOL sucks!

New Poetry Site

I decided to put all my art on Blogger. It is much easier to stroll down unlike AOL Journal.

ScareyKatt's Art!

There can by only 10 entires each on AOL. That really sucks!

You can have so many (666) on Blogger.

Oops, I meaned 999 posts! LOL

I started in the year of 1990. I will work myself to the present time.

Yes, it will take FOREVER!!

I probably have over 400 art.

Clay Aiken

Happy

"Clay said he is not gay.I don't take him for a lier." - faithway on IMDB.

Come on now! We are talking about stars in Hollywood!

Look at Raymond Burr, Rock Hudson, Robert Reed, Liberace, Richard Chamberlain, Little Richard, Roddy McDowell, George Takei, Tab Hunter, Anthony Perkins, Tommy Kirk, Dick Sargent, and many more.

Some stars will remained IN THE CLOSET, despite a successful career in Hollywood.


The fact is............some stars comes out, some don't!

Puzzles

Hometown Collection

1. Deck The Halls
2. Check In
3. New England Clam Bake
4. Firehouse Fun
5. Keystone Capers
6. Cable Cars
7. Cherry Blossom Festival
8. Snowman Contest
9. Lazy Summer Days

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Handheld Games

1. Rubik’s Cube
2. Connect 4
3. Battleship
4. Yahtzee
5. Mattel Classic Baseball
6. Mattel Classic Basketball
7. Mattel Classic Football
8. Mattel Classic Football 2


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Books

1. The Crime Encyclopedia
2. Complete Directory To Prime Time Network And Cable TV Shows 20th Anniversary Edition
3. Complete Directory To Prime Time Network And Cable TV Shows 8th Edition
4. TV Guide 50 Years Of TV
5. Life – Century Of Change
6. A Century Of Great African-Americans
7. World’s Greatest Buildings
8. Hollywood Then And Now
9. Los Angeles Then And Now
10. Las Vegas Then And Now
11. Holy Bible NKJV (small)
12. Falling for Marilyn
13. This Is Hollywood


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