I lost my cool.
I was very mad.
I pulled Miguel's hair.
I threw him to the floor.
I kicked him couple of times.
I am trying to reach out for help with my videos and this blog. I want people to see FIRST HAND in the videos and to understand the effects that the alcohol is destroying OUR LIFE together - mine and his. This is about getting help we both need for OUR addiction. The videos are a plead for help with OUR LIFES.
I lost my cool.
I was very mad.
I pulled Miguel's hair.
I threw him to the floor.
I kicked him couple of times.
6:45 AM - Miguel was awake when I woke up. The TV was on too. I used the restroom. I went to bed. I played spades. He changed it to KTLA Morning News.
7:20 AM - Miguel made some Malt O Meal. it was pretty good.
7:44 AM - Miguel changed it to Clifford The Big Red Dog.
Miguel wants to read the diary. I was busy reading the entertainment news on TV Guide site. He laid down on the couch and watched TV.
8 AM - Curious George on KCET 28.
8:30 AM - Clifford The Big Red Dog on KCET 28.
Miguel fell asleep.
8:53 AM - Miguel wanted to go to the post office tomorrow. I thought so.
9 AM - I Love Lucy on KCOP 13.
Miguel fell asleep.
9:30 AM - YouTube videos.
10:05 AM - The View on ABC.
11 AM - ABC 7 news.
11:19 AM - I decided to separate the journal dates. Kazz’s dairy was getting too long. I put all dates in their own document. Now, it’s easy to track all the dates.
Noon - I turned off the TV. I was about to watch I Love Lucy, but I changed my mind.
1 PM - Days Of Our Lives.
1:11 PM - Miguel woke up. He used the restroom. He laid on the couch again. He think there is something wrong with him; he slept all the time. Hello! He watched TV all night long!
2 PM - I turned off the TV.
2:39 PM - I had the pasta leftover from last night. I watched some videos.
2:42 PM - I paused Stacey’s new video; they was cleaning outside of my apartment. I couldn’t hear the video.
3:08 PM - Miguel woke up.
3:22 PM - Miguel turned on the TV to Super Why on KOCE, then other TV shows.
3:30 PM - Maya & Miguel on KOCE.
It was a repeat. We saw it yesterday. Miguel changed it to a Spanish talk show. Then, Maya & Miguel on KLCS 58.
4 PM - Reba on CW.
4:09 PM - I have 12 YouTube emails on AOL.
Miguel fell asleep.
4:54 PM - I looked for the TV controls on Miguel. Miguel woke up and scared me. I scared him too.
“What are you doing?”
“The controls.”
“I don’t have it.”
“I found it. It was beside you.”
He went back to sleep.
5 PM - ABC 7 News.
5:15 PM - Miguel woke up.
5:30 PM - Miguel decided to take a shower before me! Drats! He mentioned I can take one while he cooks. I got the pot above the sink. He need to use it for the microwave. He mostly use the stove. This time, the microwave! He jumped in the shower. I muted the TV. I watched more videos!
11:30 AM - I haven’t seen any new slider9012 videos in a while. That was odd. I looked at my subscriptions. He wasn’t on the list. I went to his page. I clicked on subscribe again. OMG! He blocked me! Huh? Why? I have no ideal. I did nothing wrong to him. I just don’t understand.
11:45 AM - I checked cruise4ass email. I had 53 emails. Most of them was junk. I was down to 11 from Adam.2:23 PM - Miguel turned the TV on to Hawaii Five-0.
2:35 PM - I saw dreamer72fem’s new video of her new pussy, Fluffy! The pussy looked cute.
3 PM - Maya & Miguel on KCET 28.
Miguel fell asleep during the second episode on KLCS 58.
4 PM - ABC 7 news.
5:33 PM - I have 109 YouTube emails on AOL. Most of them are my video responses to the Fluffy video! 97 emails was from me! LOL.
5:47 PM - Miguel woke up.
5:52 PM - Miguel ate a cupcake. It was really good. He really like it! That’s good to hear. I haven’t make any cupcakes in a while. He baked lots of cakes!
6 PM - The King Of Queens.
7 PM - That 70’s Show.
7:30 PM - Wheel Of Fortune.
8 PM - Dance War
9:10 PM - Miguel made some jello.
9:30 PM - 20/20 Special
9:45 PM - I have 6 YouTube emails on AOL.
11 PM - ABC 7 news.
11:30 PM - Friends.
11:31 PM - I uploaded My Girl Marry Me video on YouTube.
Midnight - Married…With Children.
12:30 AM - Bed time.
8 AM - I woke up. I used the restroom. It was cold. I jumped back in bed. I turned on KTLA Morning News.
8:50 AM - I noticed I have two new messages on the blackberry. It must be Miguel. Last night, I turned off the answer machine and the ringer on the black phone. I turned on the heater. I turned on the computer. I started today’s entry.
I saw I have a new comment on “Alcohol Make Some People Absent Minded”
“Yeah. That’s what i say to my friend when they start it up again. " why are you drinking again"? They never really have an answer. do they?” - redshorty71.
They sure don't.
In the second part, Miguel refused to answer me.
I will NOT put up with his drinking any more.
Last night, I reached my boiling point.
He called me EVIL!
I kicked him out in the cold!
Now, that was EVIL!
hehe
9:25 AM - I deleted the last two entries of myspace blog. The dates was not in the correct order. It was Wednesday, then Tuesday! I kept my diary on blogger, myspace and live journal. The last two are behind. Blogger is my main blog.
9:40 AM - I ate some Cheerios with no milk!
10 AM - The View.
10:25 AM - I turned off the heater. I tried the rent again. He wasn’t in the office. I tried all week long.
10:30 AM - I put last night’s videos on the computer.
10:53 AM - I got up from the chair. My foot was caught in the wire. The camcorder fell down to the ground. DAMN! Few times, I do that!
11 AM - I filmed the messages from the blackberry. I was unsuccessful of receiving the voice mail. I tried about 20 minutes. I even try on my home phone. Even that failed! Oh well. I will never know what Miguel said on the voice mail. Then again, I don’t have to listen to it. I already know what he will say.
11:25 AM - I turned on the answer machine and the ringer. I don’t think I will answer his phone calls this weekend. We need some time apart. He need to hit rock bottom. I could do all I could do with him. I was there for him, but it wasn’t good enough. He must learn the hard way. He need to go down for the count!
11:34 AM - I got four new messages on the About forums. Two from Days Of Our Lives fans and two from Soap Opera Forum. I went to Days first. It was about The Bradys and The DiMeras. The family trees on that soap is confusing sometimes!
I went to Soap Opera Forum.
“Yup, I think we're very blessed to have been friends for such a long time.
E-mail is very convenient for staying in touch, but not everyone has a computer at their disposal, even in this day & age. If snail mail is the only way of keeping in touch, then that's what I do rather than losing out on the friendship altogether.” - Jermahon
She made an excellent point! Sometimes, the snail mail is the best way to go in the computer age! Like she said, not everyone have computers! Some doesn't have cell phones either. She have been friends with Al about 55 years. That is a long time to be friends. They met in the third grade!
11:55 AM - I posted a bulletin on YouTube - Alcohol Make Some People Absent Minded.
Noon - I Love Lucy on FOX 11.
I wrote down February on the rent check. I tried the rent again. No success. Oh, man! The rent is due today! I looked up to his apartment. The blinds was opened. I will leave the door open for a little while. I will try again after EastEnders.
12:14 PM - Someone was talking outside. I went outside. I couldn’t find them. The office was still closed. I walked toward my place. The people talked outside of the gate in the street somewhere.
12:30 PM - EastEnders.
I made a peanut butter sandwich. I closed the door. It was cold.
1:30 PM - I put the rent in a envelope. I walked to the office. I knocked on the door. There was no answer. I put the rent under the door. I went back to my place.
1:35 PM - Days Of Our Lives.
Claire was reunited with Belle and Shawn; the whole family was happy. John was about to stab Colleen. Marlena turned around. John hid the knife in his sleeze. Marlena dragged John over to see his grandkid. Bo let Colleen to have it big time. He wanted to press charges against her! Colleen admitted she tried kidnap Brady Black, John’s son, but Brady escape from her men before they kidnap him.
2 PM - I have 17 YouTube email on AOL.
2:42 PM - Miguel called me.
2:50 PM - I heard a noise outside. I went outside. It was the apartment manager, sweeping.
“Did you got my rent?”
“Yes. I got it from under the door.”
“Good. I wondered if you got it.”
“Your friend is here,” he said.
I looked at my right. Miguel stood against the building. I let him in.
“I thought you didn’t get it. I always give you the rent in person.”
He continued to sweep. Miguel was already in the place. I went in. He got himself some pants.
“Why don’t you take a shower?”
He refused to take one. He ate some food. He was very hungry. He almost passed out on the couch. He looked at me funny. He have that look in his eyes. He want to take a shower with me. I told him he can take one first. I don’t want one.
Miguel took a shower. I saw a alcohol bottle in the basket. I filmed it. I put it on the icebox. I put up the camcorder. Since Miguel was taking a shower, why not! I looked through his bag.
Oh, boy! I hit the jackpot! I found $400! Yes, I took the money. I know he will spend it on alcohol. Also, I found a jail bracelet and his arresting ticket. I took them to the desk and filmed it quickly.
4 PM - Miguel left again.
4:19 PM - Miguel called me on the intercom. I didn’t answer. Miguel called me on the intercom. He begged me to open the door. Please! No way.
4:25 PM - I uploaded my 400th video on YouTube.
4:40 PM - I deleted my 400th video. That video should be a RESPONSE to Zipster’s AA video. Miguel can relate to that video.
4:44 PM - I uploaded my 400th video on YouTube.
4:53 PM - Miguel called me. I didn’t answer. I looked through the window. He wasn’t there.
5:03 PM - Miguel called me. I didn’t answer.
5:07 PM - Miguel called me. I didn’t answer. I looked through the window. He wasn’t there.
5:11 PM - I checked the mail. I tossed it in the dumpster.